Hum.... (Family Stuff) Trigger?

[crystalgaze]

Yep! I'm really trying to make sure I stand up for myself. I don't want to continue life in a sort of victimization mode. (It's so easy to do & scary....)

(((((((((((((((((((((( Warmie )))))))))))))))))))))))))

[crystalgaze]

Well.... Unfortunately.... Ma + Pa had a bit of a fight this Thanksgiving morning.... -_-;

I almost think they need to get a divorce or be separated.....


Of course, I am staying out of it. Hopefully, they will patch things up soon....

[crystalgaze]

Well.... My day got ruined, but I will try to recover. (Maybe that was the intended purpose.)

I must really find a way to deal with my mother because SHE IS ALMOST CONSTANTLY NEGATIVE....

Again.... It's something I had no hand in whatsoever. She went out & hit into some sort of concrete block/pole. She's upset, comes home & takes it out on me (& my father).

I am getting so sick of her. She & my Dad just had a fight. SHE TOOK THAT OUT ON ME, TOO. She decided she wasn't talking to me--like I did her something, which I DID NOT.

I am ready to curse her out & disown her, as well as tell her to drop dead. I just can't be pushed anymore.... Maybe it's my hormones because it is that time of the month for me right now, but really, I am tired of her dumping on me.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((((((( crystal )))))))))))))))

Anyway you can take a few days away from your parents? Just a thought.

Take care please

Warmie

[crystalgaze]

I am going to see if I can try..... I have pretty much holed myself up upstairs. I seriously considered seeing if I could get someone to change the locks on the doors to where I am.....

My head is in a whirl right now. I wanted to pick up everything of theirs--all that junk I have been struggling against in the Cleaning thread I started--& throwing it out onto the lawn.

I thought about simply packing everything up & just taking it downstairs, & how they sort it out is how they sort it out, if they sort it out ever.

However, as tempting as those things are, I decided not to be rash about anything. I went outside & fed the cat.... It was comforting somewhat. I went out for a drive & just left them there, didn't bother to tell them where I was going. That was it.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((((((((((((( Crystal )))))))))))))))))

Reasoning out your thoughts and taking time for yourself is a very good thing. Proud of you hon.

Warmie

[crystalgaze]

Returning your hug.... ((((((((((((( Warmie )))))))))))))))

Thank you so much!

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((((( crystal )))))))))))

You are such a sweetie, thank you.

Warmie

[crystalgaze]

My aunt who lives in New York, just arrived yesterday. I had been having a ton of anxiety about her coming and feeling invaded. She's also a tad strange. I hope it isn't old age.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((( Crystal ))))))))))))))

It isn't old age hon. You are use to your daily routine, certain people being there. Having someone else there, even family, can get you anxiety. Hang in there...

Warmie