Shut Out

[lynn]

I have never really been a happy child. I have a good relationship with my mother, however we dont see eye to eye on everything. I do not have a good or really any relationship with my father. So I think alot of my problems stem from my childhood. Growing up I did not have many friends.
Today I have friends, but not really. I feel disconnected from my life and I know that people make fun of me b/c I stay stupid things or do wierd things. I have just had enough I have shut people out of my life including a really good friend. I always try to keep a positive face but its just wearing out on me and I dont think I can keep it up much longer. I am 23 years old and I feel that if I dont keep pushing my self I will be a failure. I am trying. Please support needed.

[Scarlet]

Hey Lynn,
I'm kind of having a hard time of it atm too to be honest so I'm probs not the best person in the world to b giving advice but I can empathise with the struggle your going through.

What makes you think you do silly things? Do people around u criticise you? If they don't and it's mainly self-critical it sounds like you may just have really, really low self-esteem or put too much pressure on yourself to perform a certain way in some situations.
Is there anyone close to you, you would feel comfortable opening up to about how your feeling?

I'm sure if you get back to your friend when ur feeling alittle better bout things you can explain a bit about whats been going on? I'm sure if he/she is really a friend they will understand or maybe they could help you?

Sorry, I know this probobly isn't of very much help but keep hanging on!
Your only young and you have your whole life ahead of u....I'm sure things will evantually get better!

Thinking of you,
Scarlet

[lynn]

Hey Scarlet,

Thanks for the support. I have having a better day, but you know its ups and downs. I am trying to look on the better side and not get angry or sad, but it is hard. I am going to talk to my friend and tell her what has been happening.

How is everything for you going? I hope you are feeling better.

Lynn

[Scarlet]

That sounds like a good idea...I know it's hard opening up about your lowest feelings to others though.
I'm doing a little better than I was...had a really daunting interview today for a training scheme over the summer. Don't think I made a very good impression...stuttered and stumbled lol. Aw well..

I hope it all goes well for you...Keep us posted!