Am i on my own ???

[lisalou]

Hello little me, I know exactly what you mean in not knowing what's making you feel so bad...it's frustrating isn't it,and frustrating for those around us who don't understand depression

I live with my boyfriend Mark who is very lovely and kind but a bit at the end of his tether with me. He is also extremely cheerful and mentally stable (where do these people come from?!!!) and so just simply doesn't understand

[little me]

Hello Lisalou,


Oh my word when i see what you write you sound just like me
Mark sounds so much like my husband so cherful and very strong and so up beat , but it is really hard for them to understand i know what you mean.

I have been married for 14 years this year and he has had to put up with my mood swings for years, not sure how he has coped with me for these years but i think because we have children together it has kept us strong together.

Are you on facebook ?

Little me x

[lisalou]

I think it's great that you and your husband have such a strong marriage!

I did use to be on facebook but i haven't checked it for at least six months!! just haven't had the motivation and find it hard to chat and keep
up with everyone's news

where are you from? I'm from brighton, U.K

[little me]

Hi Lisalou

I never use to be into it but because it has been hard for me to go out it has been away to talk to people.

I live in oxfordshire xxx

[lisalou]

I think facebook is a good way of feeling connected with people which is also what i like about this forum. it's so much easier than having to talk to people and easier than going out. I have become more and more reclusive with my depression. i never answer the phone and find myself avoiding people i know,even people i really like when i'm out and about just because i can't face talking to them

I've never been to oxfordshire. do you know brighton particularly?

[little me]

Lisalou Hello!

The more and more i hear from you the more i see myself in how you think and how you feel, which is really nice as i do feel most of the time it's only me who is like this!!! around me

You are so right i find myself not even wanting to talk to people who are my friends at times and hide myself away, i am also like you i would rather not take any calls , but i get stuck at times when my little boys takes the call then i have to talk.

No i have not been to where you live but i'm sure it must be nice x

[little me]

Hello to all my friends on here

I just wanted to tell you all that the first time in 9 weeks i drove my car on my own with my boys in the back to go and visit my mum, i even went to the co-op to buy my mum a easter egg, and have not been able to go to the shops for 9 weeks!!!

Might sound strange to some people but this is a great step for me to take today.................so i am really pleased with myself.

Be nice to hear from anyone who would like to send a reply, i always reply back

With lots of love and big hug from Little me xxxx

[xn728]

heyyyyyyy little me ,,,well done your really chuffed with yourself i can tell you sound really full of yourself ,,im so very pleased you have done this ,,maybe you will be able to something else again soon keep in the rytham ,,,,dont worry about the forum being quiet ,,it can be at bank holidays etc ,,and some of our freinds are trapped in the darkness,they will feel better soon and will return to the forum ,,ill be around i always read your posts ,,happy easter well done heres a big hug
((((((((((little me )))))))))),,,,love ken xx xn728 ,ps little me ,,it doesnt sound strange i to suffer a great deal but im feeling very good of late xx

[little me]

HELLO xn728 ken,


Yeah thank you for your reply again!!!! yes this is a big step for me so i am happy that i done this today Ken

Thought i would write it down on here as we don't always see the good days only focus on the bad, and as my day has been a better one today, and this is my first good day in a very long time, and i know this may not be the case for long so i wanted to share it with you all

This may not go on for long i know , as i have suffered for over 15 years so i know all the ups and downs what go on!!!

Yes it does seem that there are not alot of people about at the moment on here.

My love and big hug and kisses to you all on here, love Little me x

[xn728]

hey little me ,,enjoy it for as long as it lasts ,,i to have been a suffer,er for 44 years ,,just now i feel good ,,for about 4 days now ,,fingers crossed ,,so glad you like it here ,,we laugh here at times to ,,so look forward to that ,,,night night my freind ,,,have a good tommorrow ,,
hugs (((((little me))))),,love ken ,,xn728 xxx

[lisalou]

I'm so proud of you that you managed to drive and go to the shop by yourself! That is huge! you must be feeling so much more confident now

[little me]

Hi lisalou (Lisa)

Yes it feels like such a big step for me, it was just so nice to see the look of my sons faces they were so happy bless them, and made me feel really good because i made them smile

Thank you Lisa to say you are proud of me, that is so sweet of you to say sweetheart.

How have you been doing today? has work been ok?

xxxxx

[little me]

Hello To you all!


Hope your all having an ok day today?????

I need help........half term for my 2 boys and husband working, which can't be helped i know, but it is hard going to keep them busy. This is week 1 and still have the weekend and the week after to get through!! is anyone here in the same boat as me ???????

Would be great to hear from other people on here too

Big hug from me to you all love little me xxx

[TackingIntoTheWind]

You're certainly not alone in how you feel
Although, my depression/anxiety are slightly different from yours, in that I find it very difficult to spend too much time in my home by myself. In my case isolation is a depression-trigger for me. ( So, I go out into the world and depress other people! )
Seriously though, glad you found this site!!!!

[little me]

Bless you ,

Thank you , it does make you feel so alone when you don't have anyone around you who is like you

It makes me feel so strange as everyone around me seems to be all ok and it's just me!! think i just think abit too much all the time, and is hard when you feel like we do !

For the first time in weeks i have been feeling like i just need to get out of my house, in some ways this is good as i have not been feeling safe to do this, but i need to feel i can do this on my own. It has been such a hard day today with my boys as they are too young to understand bless them that i do not want to be around lots of people in the park, so i did take them for a bike ride and hoped that would be good enough

Thank you for your time

XXXX