TIME AGAIN ALREADY

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HELLO EVERYBODY ,WE HAD SUCH FUN YESTERDAY ,TODAY SEEMS A BIT OF AN ANTI CLIMAX REALLY ,BEEN QUIET ON THE FORUM ,APART FROM CRYSTALGAZE ,SHES BEEN BUSY AS USUAL .SHE HELPED ME LAST WEEK AND I WILL ALWAYS BE GRATEFUL , TODAY SHE CHECKED UP ON ME AS I COULDENT GET ON THE FORUM ,I THINK IVE UPSET HER WITH MY IF I MAY NOT BE HERE POST ,I ONLY DO IT SO NO ONE WORRYS IF I GO AWAY ,ITS A FACT OF MY LIFE ,MY DEPRESSION IS SO COMPLEX
YOU ALL KNOW THE THINGS I SEE AND THE WAY I DEAL WITH IT ,
THE VISITOR CAN COME AT ANYTIME AND TAKE ME ,TOTALLY AND
COMPLETELY ,THEN WHAT I DO IS WITHDRAW DEEP INSIDE MYSELF ,
AND THEN FULLY CONCENTRATE ON ACTING NORMAL ,THE HARDEST PART OF MY DEPRESSION IS HIDING IT FROM MY FAMILY ,YOU ARE ALL STRONG AND CAN GET BY WITHOUT ME ,YOU HAVE TO USE YOUR OWN STRENTGHS TO CARRY ON ,YOU ALL HAVE EACH OTHER ,READ YOUR POSTS ,WE ARE A TIGHT GROUP AND IF I GO AWAY CARRY ON ,I WILL HAVE PEACE OF MIND IF I KNOW YOUR ALL LOOKING OUT FOR EACH OTHER ,I TRY TO KEEP MOST OF MY PAIN OUT OF HERE ,I GIVE YOU ALL KIND WORDS ALL TRUE AND WE,LL MEANT ,THE FACT THAT I KEEP MOST OF MY PAIN IS IM USED TO IT NOW ,AND WHEN I SEE IT ON HERE I DONT WANT TO ADD TO IT ,I GIVE FREELY AND ASKED FOR NOTHING ,
I CRY SPONTAINIOUSLY ,DAILY ,SHOPPING WHATEVER SUCH IS MY PAIN ,AND YES ,IF I HAD NO TIES HERE ,THEN I WOULD TAKE A ADIQUITE DOSE OF TABLETS PUT ON MY HEADPHONES AND ROCK FOREVER,WHERE EVER I WOULD BE TAKEN TO ,PROBABLY HELL COZ SOMEWERE EARILIER ON A POST ,I TOLD THE VISITOR TO KISS MY ARSE ,YOUR ALL DEAR FREINDS ,AND I WILL SAY NO MORE ABOUT THIS NOW ,WHEN IM TAKEN ,AS SOON A LIFE PERMITS I WILL RETURN TO MY PLACE BY THAT FIRE
AND AT THIS PIONT IN TIME I FEEL FINE SO KNOW MORE
RANTINGS FROM CRACKPOT CORNER ,
HEY ONIKA ,IT JUST ME ,CANT HELP IT
GOODNIGHT EVERYONE ,ONIKA ,,,,,,HAVE A GOOD TOMMORROW,,,KEN

[lisalou]

if you ever need a bit of time out you take it my dear kenny pop and there will always be a very special place for you here by the fire as and when you wanna come here,and you know what,the visitor can kiss my arse as well,he's not the boss of you,you are stronger than anything depression has to throw at you because you ROOOOOOOOCK!!!

love lisa xx

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thanks lisa ,,take care and be strong ,,,,,,,,xn728 ken

[Mich]

I will miss you if you take a break from the forum but understand why you need to do so. Please take good care and come back soon. *hugs*

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just stick with it mich ,i cant say much i really am out off it ken

[crystalgaze]

I just saw this & of course, it's not a problem...! Take the time you need!

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hi onika ,look at the nice fire ,im not going anywere just yet ,dont worry ,
this photo i like ,but i would prefer the one with the ferrets ,,,,,,,,ken