i,ll try to bring something back ,im sorry.the early days

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ive been crazy and deleted my posts ,i,ll try to bring some back ,sorry
r uss was a big part of my life up till the age 18 we rode motorcycles together ,illegal most of the time ,big triumphs ,bsa,s etc we would ride dirt bikes ,we lived and breathed these great machines .smashed us up more than once .but that was part of the thrill ,we came through childhood together always together we thought alike and acted alike we couldent be parted ,one night russ had been out drinking and when he returned home rather late .his father opened the door and said if he came in late again the door would remain locked ,russ was,nt one for confrountation so he just sat in the living room and watched tv ,his father had gone to bed /russ felt angry but he couldent understand this upsetting emotion ,he didnt know how to speak to his father ,so he thought he would do something to teach him a lesson ,wicth would make him leave him alone .so russ for some reason thought that if he set fire to the papers in the rack under the tv this would leave a mess in the morning and his father would see this and would be wary about telling russ off again .so russ lit the papers edge and went off upstairs to bed .russ drifted quickly into an angry and confused sleep ,the terrible shudder and the sound of the tv exploding and blowing the living room window into the back yard was the end of the road for russ he ran down stairs and opened the living room door it was like opening the gates of hell the fire licked along the ceiling very fast his mother shouted his name as she stood and looked in she knew he was responsable ,he stood in horror as the flames got larger the cieling was coming in now and everyone was in the street russ looked on in horror he knew what he had done even though it wasnt meant to be like this /it was all to much for this young puzzeld mind he would have to go now ,if he stayed he would be hounded forever,his future children he must leave this place his mam and dad his freinds his bikes his life /he had desroyed everything his parents had and now he would destroy himself , so the young russ took his middle name and became ken , and ken stood and watched russ as he slowly walked into the flames his dreams his hopes his innocense gone forever .ken moved away from this place and didnt make new friends but still has russ tattooed on his wrist ,i have never let this out before and dont no why im doing it now i must go now the keyboard is blured by tears please forgive me for this terrible thing i have done xn728

[crystalgaze]

~whisper~ I think I've been saying this for some time, but you're just fine.

You're an incredibly wonderful individual.... From all of your posts I've ever read... I know how it turned out was not what you wanted exactly....

I just wanted to respond to this.... The rest of what I will say... I'll save it for later....

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your to kind ,anyway those post are yours and everyone elses now ,i gave them to you all ,so i could not harm them ,i know there in good hands ,,,,,,,,,,,ken xn728