Living With Depression When You Look “Fine” on the Outside

[Tom57]

Great post and so relatable.

The part that really resonated with me was the paragraph (which was formatted nicely by the way) about "guilt". Oh, that is like me! Other things mentioned that's like me is about losing interest in things I used like to do. Also, I feel like I want to make some changes in my life and don't know how to go about it.

I get the part about depression just creeping in. I think it happened to me. Many years ago, my Primary Care Giver told me I have depression when I went for an annual check up. I didn't believe it at an instant but then I wasn't surprised.

I don't know what to tell you what to do. I've taken anti-depressants and therapy. They didn't help. What can help me is to keep busy at things I still like to do that are simple. But the help seems temporary.

Recently I had to let go of the only friend I have. He was antagonizing with me, which boosted my depression. Plus he doesn't understand it and would rather me not talk about it. Even at times, he'd shame me for mentioning it. I'm glad to let him go but it's hard to have no one for me now. I hope it will change but it's always been hard for me to make friends.

Best to you.

[Tom57]

I just want to say that I said, "I've taken anti-depressants and therapy. They didn't help". I want to clarify that even though those two things didn't work for me, it may work for you. Also, some people have said to me that I'm a real perky person. I can be when I'm around others who are alright with me, but I feel like I'm never a real perky person.

[1Hopeful1]

Thank you for your post. It actually brought tears to my eyes as it explains what I'm going through.

I've been dealing with depression for decades. Recently, I was diagnosed with treatment resistant depression. It's been difficult. I feel all of the guilts that you listed. I feel the lonliness, I feel like joy has been taken from my life. I continue to move forward but some days, well, I wonder why. I always tell myself that tomorrow will be a better day.

I'd love to hear from others as to what helps them?
I wish peace and happiness to all who are suffering from depression.