Depression and a Birthday

[BrokenPen]

Recently it was my birthday and the fact that I'm a year older is bad enough but there came a point after all the partying and gift giving that I suddenly sat down with the realization of "Wow...28 and I haven't made anything of myself."

Usually people who hit this age have done something with their lives. I don't mean gotten married, had kids, bought a house, and all that.

I mean career wise.

I would think that there are those who hit this age and are well into it, aren't they?

[lisalou]

hi there Broken Pen

well,happy belated birthday. and just a quick note to make friends and to let you know that I am 28 too and frequently judge myself to be a 'failure' in terms of what I feel I should be doing. I have only just been in 'proper' employment the last couple of years due to my mental health problems. in fact today is exactly two years since I started my job and I spent it...crying and freaking out at the doctors and getting signed off work again due to another massive bout of depression which has hit me like a hammer.somehow underneath it all i now i'll get ok again and go back to work..or if i dont it doesnt matter

please don't judge yourself by your career or what you see to be your lack of. no one ever lies on their death bed and says Wow i wish I'd worked harder

I have literally just joined this site and yours is the first post ive read and you are the first person i am writing to and am reaching out to knowing that we are both in this crappy old boat named depression.i'm not alone and you're not alone. Now that is something you've achieved

Lisa (from Brighton, England)

p.s i would lend you a non-broken pen x x

[crystalgaze]

Happy Belated Birthday as well. I know how you feel. Reaching my 25th b-day this year made me have a breakthrough/realization similar to what's happening with you.

My dad didn't really "make something of himself" until he was around 34 to 36 & he didn't suffer from depression (as far as I know). Personally, I think he did from stuff that he has said to me, but maybe it wasn't severe. This may not be easy, but I wouldn't beat myself up about it.

It is something to note & help you move forward, so you don't feel that way again.

The only people I've seen make something of themselves where I live were those who went straight to work at 18. A few people I know did that. They went to teach & knew what it was they wanted to do. Maybe that's the key there. When they went to teach, there weren't things like having to take the Praxis tests & the No Child Left Behind Act.

It does take some time to get there. I am currently jobless & feel similarly, but I'm not going to let it get to me right this minute. I'm going to keep trying & hope that I get where I need to go some day. The thing is I don't know where I'm going..... Maybe you will have better luck.

I'm rooting for you. Take care!

[xn728]

oh my ,i was 51 and looked what ive done ,i,ll just turn around and look down the road i traveled for all these years ,oh yes ,carnage ,broken lives
shattered dreams ,disowned .,so youve got loads of time left ,do some stuff ,dont walk the road with me ,i made my monster,moulded it with my mind ,took the wrong turn ,your all young ,reach out and take it ,you can still have your dreams
xn728

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((((( Ken ))))))))))))))

Dreams are there for all of us. Just have to keep searching, no matter the age.

Got stuck in a dream myself, but then I got the wake up call and realized it wasn't a dream to be had. Don't you give up! Please.

Warmie/Jeanie

[xn728]

thanks ,for that ,i wont give up ,my dreams are all gone ,i must concentrate on making someone elses life as comftable as possible ,at this time ,good to hear from you xn728,,,ken ps my spelling is shocking

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((((((((( Ken )))))))))))))))

I read typonese

My dreams are crushed but I still feel and want. Same as you.

You have friends and a new family here, hope that is good for you.

Thoughts with you, take care

Warmie/Jeanie

[xn728]

i was lost till i found this place ,i know i must seem crazy some times
but i love it here ,i can let my feelings out ,and share with others,i will go silent soon ,the visitor has something laid on for me ,and i must go to a special place ,xn728,,,ken

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((( Ken ))))))))))))))

Glad you found us, we are a family of sorts, keep that in mind.

Take care of yourself.

Warmie