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[spencer]

Hello everyone my name is Spencer and I am 21. I have recently started therapy for social anxiety. I've been diagnosed with social phobia and several years ago I was diagnosed with depression. I am taking flueoxitine and have been going to therapy though I haven't been for about a month. My anxiety has diminished incredibly but it seems my depression is back at full force.

I started cutting as a teen and never really completely stopped. For a couple years I would only do it a little bit every several months but as of a couple days ago it seems to be getting out of control. It used to be something I could hide easily but I am in a committed relationship so it's impossible for me to hide. I know he knows because I have seen his eyes move from me to my leg. He has not mentioned it, he's just stated several times he worries about me. He went to visit his dad and so while I was alone I did it again a lot more and I am worried about doing it so much he mentions it or freaks out and I don't know what to say because I don't really understand my depression that much so its difficult.

I'm hoping I'll find others with similar struggles. I think that is a lot of what gets me down is I just have trouble relating and I feel like I'm alone with my problems. I think despite my social phobia I do well in group support settings, and online is way less scary than in person!

[Frame]

I think you may be on to something here, Spencer. Posting and responding here has been very helpful to me (although some days you may not be able to tell.)

Welcome, tell us more.