Just hanging in there

[Monty]

Hi everyone,

Just a quick note to let you know that I am still on this planet.

Things have been rather tough for the past month or so. I have considered going back to behavior that is not the healthiest for me. Behavior that I haven't indulged in for many years.

I am still here though. I have been experiencing a lot of physical problems along with the emotional ones. At times it seems like I am just holding on by the end of the rope.

Living with an elderly parent who is slipping into dementia is proving to be more difficult for me to handle every day. To lay all of the cards on the table is am essentially just helping my mother to die with some kind of dignity.

But like I hav said I am still here and think about he forum often. At times I have had such low energy that I cannot turn over in bed, to answer the phone. It is just too much.

I was seeing someone from the Council on Aging to help coping with mom. I just am at the point that all I plan to do in a day is to do the stuff I need to for my mom, and then retreat into bed as soon as I can.

It is like looking after a child. The problem is that a child grows up. Mom will just get worse. She already has trouble remembering my brother (who lives in the same city) kids. We go over that every so often. She has a better time remembering my kids because mine are older and we used to spend a lot of time with mom, when they were little.

Just wanted to let you know why I haven't been posting. I am hoping that after this round of anti-biotics I will be feeling better, with more energy to spend time with my forum friends.

[xn728]

I nearly turned away my dear freind monty when i saw the title of your thread ,,i knew it wouldent be good ,,but to do that i would never have forgiven myself ,,its not that i dont care ,,purely the fact that all my freinds suffer greatly at this time ,,and i dont know how much more i can take ,,please just go on ,,easy for me to say i know ,,but at the moment its all i have ,Fran is very ill just now ,,so i will have to be breif,,,
OUR HEARTS AND MINDS ARE AS ONE HERE ,,SO PLEASE TAKE ALL THE STRENTGH YOU NEED FROM WHAT I LEAVE YOU HERE ,,,DONT HURT YOURSELF ..TO DO THAT WOULD SOMETHING UNBEARABLE TO DEAL WITH ,,,HUGS (((((MONTY))))) ,,,LOTS OF LOVE KEN XXXX,,,MISSING YOU SO MUCH ,,BUT YOUR ALWAYS IN MY THOUGHTS ,,,,,X

[Mich]

Monty - I am so sorry you are struggling right now. I can't imagine how difficult it would be to take care of someone with dementia. Please try not to fall back into old destructive habits...you know nothing good can come of it. I know you are giving everything you have for your mother but I hope there is a tiny bit of you left to take care of you and do a loving thing for yourself. You're in my thoughts, Mich