life: stress meds thinking sadness

[mk43]

im new to all this never really wanted to write so all can see usually only in a journal. I guess it's a mixture anxiety depression and medication that works but am sick of taking. I feel embarresed i take them, after being a guinea pig for so long. Explaining myself to those i love when i dont feel i have to explain b/c everyone believes im getting better due to me...yet now they think im cured. Only thing is im not 100% i still smoke..both...take lamictal celexa klonopin and adderall 2 controlled substances some dont make sense besides just pure addictiveness. I still have problems handling everyday stupid things without going nutz and wanting to hide it's an everyday battle still but instead im not covering in the sheets just doing small things to feel a sense of accomplishment. recently my hrs got cut and i dont know wat to do. it's making me go insane...depressed as hell when i did an awsome job and be screwed over. It gave me structure. On top of that i was able to work with people. I was told i was unable to handle the pressure effectivly and that hurt. I dont like that i have to wear bracelets to cover scars on my wrists.

[Monty]

Hi mk43,

It is a safe place to share here. The forum is made up of a lot of caring people, who have gone through tough times themselves and are willing to be there for others to lean on.

Just like others were there when they needed the help.

I used to just write in a journal. This forum is just an extension of that for me now. The nice thing is to see the replies that both I, and the rest who post, get.

Look forward to learning more about you.

[crystalgaze]

mk, hello! I hope you are still with us! How are things?