KENS ,DAUGHTER ,AND GOODNIGHT ,MISSED YOU ALL

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HEY EVERYBODY ,IVE MISSED YOU ALL TODAY ,I HOPE YOU ARE ALL WELL ,HOPE I CAN SEE YOU TOMMORROW ,IF YOUR POORLY REMEMBER
YOU CAN STAND UP ,DO IT FOR YOURSELVES AND ME ,I DONT WANT TO
BE HERE ALONE ,HAD THAT WHEN I WAS A KID ,THE OTHER KIDS WOULD ASK ME TO PLAY ,HIDE AND SEEK ,LOOKED FOR THEM ALL OVER
ON MY WAY HOME I WOULD SEE THEM PLAYING SOMEWERE ELSE
LAUGHING AND POINTING AT ME ,SO ONIKA ,WARMIE ,LISA ,MICH ,
MONTY ,AIM ,AURELIA,,ALL MY DEAR FREINDS GOODNIGHT AND I SEE YOU TOMMORROW ,,,,,,,,,KEN ,,,,,,NOW HERES WHAT HAPPENED TO MY
LITTLE GIRL ,,,,,,NIGHT
Shelley and her partner of 2 years share a house together ,he has had a bank loan that he defaulted on
and so does not have a bank account ,he gets paid cash ,so when they buy stuff ,such as tv,s and hi fi,s and
furniture ,and so on ,shelley gets it on her card ,and he contributes some cash ,yes i know ,bad ,bad ,idea
tryed to tell shelley this and what could happen ,but she was 20 at the time ,working ,and it is her life ,
the rent alone is more than half her wages a mounth ,so on to yesterday ,firstly he works 6am till 2pm so
shelley gets up at 5,30 everyday and takes him to work ,shelley works 8,30 am till 6,30 pm ,she rings him on her
afternoon break at 2,30 pm everyday ,yesterday the phone went unanswered ,she rang me ,and asked if i would
go round and check if he was ok ,so off i went ,knocked on both back and front doors,but no answer ,rang shelley
back ,so she starts crying worried somethings happen to him ,we have a spare set of keys for the house so i said
i would go round ,and said he may just have fallen asleep ,i went round to the house and let myself in the front
door ,i knew what was happening when i stepped on his keys witch had been posted through the door along with a
broken sim card ,i shouted any way ,no answer ,i didn,t expect one ,when i walked into the kicthen i saw the
note ,now i had to read this ,im sorry if you think this was wrong ,but shelleys not stupid ,and i was not gonna
let her come home alone and in the dark ,to stand there and read that poor excuse for an apologie ,he said sorry
for leaving her with so much dept ,etc ,etc .But if he wasnt happy with things lets face it ,it didnt just happen
yesterday when he woke up ,theyve just bought tickets to see the lost profets and spent 150 quid to stay at a nice
hotel to make it a nice weekend ,on shelleys card of course ,so i rang shelley and told her,i know how much it hurt
her ,but it was just so hard for me to do ,listening to her crying uncontrolably on the phone ,oh god ,a dad just
doesnt wanna hear that ,she came home from work and we went round there ,she just feels so empty and alone ,she
theres no point in living there any more ,,i cant really say much only comfort her ,i,ll talk more to her in a couple
of days ,she may feel a bit better then .dont worry there be no i told you so,s shes had the lesson now ,we have
no money now myself and fran ,we bought all the carpets and decorated for them with the last of our savings
but we will help out when we can ,fran had a really bad attack last night ,with all the stress ,i didnt let it
show ,but i was just at breacking point ,the pressure was incredible ,but today seems a little less stressful
shelley hasnt cryed ,she been round with us looking on ebay and stuff,ive always been a bit weary of shelleys
boyfreinds but thats just a dad thing ,having said that her previous boyfreind seemed ok ,till the police
brought shelley home one night ,the boyfreinds neibours had heard screaming ,called the police and he was trying
to strangle shelley upstairs ,she may have to come back home if we cant finance everything ,but we,ll cross that
bridge when we get to it ,so that what happened ,,and you wonder why im crazy,,,,thanks for having me YOU KNOW YOUR A GREAT BUNCH OF FREINDS AND I KNOW I KEEP SAYING THIS BUT I JUST THINK I,LL WAKE UP AND THIS WHOLE THING WILL HAVE GONE AND I WILL SUFFER ALONE ONCE MORE ,AND THEN WHEN YOUR NOT ON I WORRY ABOUT YOU ALL BUT THATS CALLED HAVING FREINDS ,I HAVE FREINDS ,ME KEN HAS FREINDS,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,KEN NIGHT ONIKA ,NIGHT WARMIE GIRL
NIGHT ALL ,TOMMORROW WILL BE DIFFERANT THAN TODAY ,,BETTER
PS HOPE YOU LIKE THE FIRE ,LAST ONE OUT TONIGHT PUT SOME LOGS ON ,I DONT CARE IF ITS RAINING OUTSIDE ,,,,,,,,,,,,

[lisalou]

what a complete b*****d,you think you know someone after 2 years,no wonder poor shelley is so broken hearted,that is cruel on a level i didnt even know existed, it happened to my friend too not long ago,his girlfriend of 5 years just disappeared randomly taking most of their stuff and the three girls that he helped to raise as his own,what is wrong with some people,and people say we're mentally ill!!!!!

[Mich]

What a cowardly b*****d. I feel so bad for your Shelley. It will take some time, but this wound will heal. I am glad you are there for her.

[crystalgaze]

Hey there Ken! You're not a lone! I was feeling a little odd yesterday in general. ~lol~ I got triggered a little bit yesterday, cried a little bit, etc..

I am laughing at myself for it....but I am okay. ^_^ Definitely okay.

It sounds like you're going through a stressful time, indeed. Gosh, what happened is really hard...

Shelley has a really beautiful name. She sounds like she'd also be someone with a wonderful spirit. I hope she will not let this or anyone ruin her spirit.

Take care (for you both)..!

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

((((((((((((((((( Ken )))))))))))))))))))))))))))

What a wonderful father you truly are. The love you have for your child shines through. The support you give, the gentle words, hugs, smiles and love you will help her so so much. Let's her know she is a good person and she will always have that from her father and mother.

All you can do is what you can. Bringing her home, giving her the chance to 'pull it together' and get her bearings might be an excellent thought. At least you will know she IS safe, protected and loved.

While taking care of her, please remember to take care of yourself, for Fran, Shelley and your family here.

Warmie

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well shellys ok today ,maybe she had an idea this was going to happen
shes taking it well ,thanks for your concerns and wishing to know ,myself
we,ll as you may have seen ive got my armour on ,and i hear the sound of battle in the distance ,it wont be fought here ,i dont think ,some thing ,queit and subliminal deafeated me here , till later ken