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Postby BrokenPen » Thu May 31, 2012 8:21 am

Things seemed like they were looking up. At the beginning of the month, I had gone through the ceremony of graduation from College with double majors in professional and creative writing. On top of that I managed to get a job at Wal-Mart doing overnight stocking. I thought that it would be a good thing that I finally managed to get a job.

But then I was wrong. The job was physically demanding on my arms, my feet and my back. And on top of that I there was this boss I had by the name of Stacy. A middle-aged woman who had the attitude towards me like a Southern Plantation Slave Driver. Even when I was working at my most fast in picking up boxes, putting them on the shelves and going back again it still wasn't fast enough.

I told her that I was trying but she gave me the ultimatum of "Do it or don't."

I already know how useless I am as a human being but I don't think I need any reinforcement from someone like her.

There were times when the stress got to be so much that I went into the bathroom and held the box cutter above my arm and thought how easy it would be to just run it up my arm as if it were the edge of an ordinary box and let the contents spill on the floor. Because those were my options working under her, unemployment or death. And really death seemed so much better. It made me think that perhaps VanGough, Hemmingway and Kurt Cobain had the right idea all along.

So, I quit my job there. Because no matter how fast I went, even with risking injury to my back, my arms and my feet, it was still not fast enough.

So that's it. I'm never good enough for anything.

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Postby shatteredhopes » Wed Jun 13, 2012 4:44 pm

Congratulations on finishing college! Quite an acheivement!

I understand how the job got you down, but in my experience I can tell you a few things about low wage jobs. They generally have supervisors who have no college education and no idea how to treat people and exploit their employees and sometimes violate labor laws. These uneducated superviors often resent you if you have an education and get on a power trip pretending they are so important because they are jealous of you. Wal-Mart is notorious for its labor on line and you'll see what I am talking about.

Since you have basic computer skills, why not sign up for a temp agency? That way if you get on a crappy job you just don't continue that job and go on to the next. It will keep money coming in and then you can work on your writing. Just a thought.

Anyway, congratulations on your dual degree. Quite impressive.
"Sorrow floats" John Irving

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