WHAT A DAY ,I FELT SO LOW

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HI my freinds ,i feel so drained today ,i thought i had upset someone ,and it has really knocked the stuffing out of me ,but its been resolved now and im starting to feel better ,i feel in future i will share my worries more and if i must share my pain ,so the same person i thought i had hurt has given me a gift ,a lesson i will remember ,ok thats done with ,
what about the picture then ,that really is me today ,im serious man
ive been trying to get pictures on here for ages ,and failed ,but now ive cracked it ,this could keep me happy for hours ,im gonna build up a picture mood library ,you,ll all be sick of me by the time im finished
i really do think a lot of you guys ,you know ,im gonna keep my head above water so hopefully i wont have to go ,the visitor is very strong and he could reach out and hurt someone ,i wonder if the things i write about my self scare anyone ,i was in the garden today tidying up the leaves ,there was a thud behind me ,i looked around to see a large creature not to disimilar to the picture here but with no face ,it just sat there heaving around ,i turned away for a few seconds and looked again
nothing ,what a fantastic thing the depression has given me ,some things i see are horrific creatures but i enjoy them i would even say they leave me awe struck ,and powerful ,in time of stress i wish i could unleash them
to warn away the things that hurt me ,im not mad ,the depression that destroys me has given me a wonderful mind and the way i use it keeps me sane ,if i couldent share these strange visions with you then there would be no point in being here ,ive been called terrible things but never here ,time yet though lol,,another thing ,men never seem to answer my posts or replys mmmm,,,,,,,,,i dont get any privicy at home ,when i try and post i can have spent an hr typing something and someone will come in and i have to log off and lose everthing ,this is very frustrating ,but its the way it is ,fran doesnt like to be alone ,i understand that
so goodnight for now im tired tommorrow will be better
night all night .onika warmie

[lisalou]

hi ken,i'm glad you can enjoy some of your visions and have learned to work with your own mind. sometimes i can enjoy the strange gifts that depression brings in its peculiar way but today i am just numb and worn out from it all. look forward to pictures of more wild and wonderful beasties!
lisa xx

[crystalgaze]

a picture mood library... that sounds like a great idea!

hhmm... how about when you start your post... can you put will continue later? in case someone walks in... you can send it in quickly & log off.... so it's not frustrating?

just a thought....

about the picture.... its hand is outstretched, just waiting for us all to take it...

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hey lisa ,onika ,i wish i could bring some of my beast to life in the ral world ,sometimes when there with me ,i try so hard to make them be seen ,im not afraid of them ,just wish i could control them i have a new one now came first on sunday night it hangs from the ceiling like a spider ,but not a spider ,,the more i think about it the more i think i like being depressed,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,ken

[lisalou]

spiders are a good omen, they are lucky! i like spiders. maybe cos not a lot of other people do,i feel sorry for the poor little buggers,they're just misunderstood

LET'S MAKE TOMORROW 'SAVE OUR SPIDERS' DAY! NAME AND BEFRIEND THEM! FEED THEM LUSCIOUS PLANTS! PUNISH ALL WHO SQUISH THEM!!!

i'm really sorry everyone, it must be time for my medication...

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I LOVE SPIDERS ,BUT THIS IS NO GOOD LUCK ,IT USALLY MEANS TROUBLE ,WHEN I SEE THESE THINGS ,AND GUESS WHAT ,A VERY BAD BLOW FOR MY 22 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER TODAY ,I WILL POST ABOUT THIS SOON ,HOPE YOUR GOOD LISA ,THANKYOU FOR YOUR KIND REPLYS
,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,KEN ,IGGY WHATEVER YA LIKE ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

[crystalgaze]

gosh so sorry to hear about your daughter.... ((((Ken))))