foolish expectations

[inrecovery2011]

How will I be the best if I fail
How can I be happy with knowing I made a mistake
Oh how my mind can make me the most miserable person I know
Smiling is hard when you see all the shortcomings, failures I have done
You say lighten up on yourself you are doing fine
I agree but in the back of my head I make a note not to tell about the feelings in that area
Key words to avoid
I fear many things but most of all I fear never being good enough
Oh how I dread never living up to my high expectations
Yes they are high I just know I can achieve them if I am just good enough, smart enough, and stay focused
To live life as second best unthinkable I have to be number one
Oh how can I achieve that by working hard and never ever give up
I will be better than I am know
You may laugh and say I am foolish to believe I can be the best at anything but the challenge is there to be who I can be
Who I want to be is better than what I am now
Mark my words I can do better just need a little more faith in me