Memories Continually Resurfacing (triggering material)
Posted: Mon Dec 06, 2010 4:32 am
Memories Continually Resurfacing
In my life you were always the one thing I feared,
And before you died, I wish you could have heard,
I wish you could have seen, the way it affected me,
Why couldn't you just let me be?
As years past by i got older; older and brighter,
and our relationship bond grew tighter and tighter.
Something started to feel wrong,
Like there was an element there that didn't belong.
You grew close to me and acted like my friend,
Then you manipulated and threatened me,
Took away my innocence, my love of life,
But nobody would believe or see.
Nobody cared to ask why you tried to be alone with me,
When I tried to protest nobody seemed to hear or see,
So you always took what you wanted,
And now I will be forever changed, forever haunted.
I bet you never looked back on what you begun,
I bet you didn't even care; for you it was probably all fun,
Now your gone, but that doesn't mean everything can be erased,
no one knows about the pain that I continue to face.
i dont know what to do, don't know what to say,
I'll never be able to forget these horrible things you did,
you'll never understand how I felt on any of those days,
or how much pain that i have hid.
I could go to psychiatrists and spill out my thoughts,
they could give me pills and say I've been taught.
They can look at me and say "It's ok I Understand"
But they will never know or feel the terror of a Grandfather's Hand.
I waited and waited for a day to come,
when revenge would be given for the damage you'd done.
I hoped that later on in your old pathetic life,
you'd see me and how badly you ruined mine.
I wish you could have felt what I felt over the years,
I wish I could have made you feel the same pain,
Made you cry the same endless tears,
Made you feel like you were going insane.
In my life you were always the one thing I feared,
And before you died, I wish you could have heard,
I wish you could have seen, the way it affected me,
Why couldn't you just let me be?
As years past by i got older; older and brighter,
and our relationship bond grew tighter and tighter.
Something started to feel wrong,
Like there was an element there that didn't belong.
You grew close to me and acted like my friend,
Then you manipulated and threatened me,
Took away my innocence, my love of life,
But nobody would believe or see.
Nobody cared to ask why you tried to be alone with me,
When I tried to protest nobody seemed to hear or see,
So you always took what you wanted,
And now I will be forever changed, forever haunted.
I bet you never looked back on what you begun,
I bet you didn't even care; for you it was probably all fun,
Now your gone, but that doesn't mean everything can be erased,
no one knows about the pain that I continue to face.
i dont know what to do, don't know what to say,
I'll never be able to forget these horrible things you did,
you'll never understand how I felt on any of those days,
or how much pain that i have hid.
I could go to psychiatrists and spill out my thoughts,
they could give me pills and say I've been taught.
They can look at me and say "It's ok I Understand"
But they will never know or feel the terror of a Grandfather's Hand.
I waited and waited for a day to come,
when revenge would be given for the damage you'd done.
I hoped that later on in your old pathetic life,
you'd see me and how badly you ruined mine.
I wish you could have felt what I felt over the years,
I wish I could have made you feel the same pain,
Made you cry the same endless tears,
Made you feel like you were going insane.