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I had a bout of this last night... I didn't understand it at all....

I was frightened I would have a nightmare, where something would be hovering over me as I was sleeping & I would wake up, open my eyes & find it there.

I wanted to curl up with my sig. other.... I felt a loved one would die... It was just so bizarre... It was a constellation of feelings.

My dad has gone for his checkup to the mainland. I don't know if that has any thing to do with it... Almost every morning I get up, I keep thinking about this lady I know & I don't know something tells me I must find a way to reach her.

Live at the corner, so I am almost always a little on edge of hearing a bad accident.... don't know why....

On 2nd thought... If the cars were to go into the bush on the empty lot, it really IS pretty close to the house...

Of course, just as I was getting comfortable enough to doze or whatever, the rooster came. I wish I could catch it & put a muzzle on its beak, so it wouldn't cockle....!

I had some of this the other day.

Simply put, I was freaked out by a male I encountered....

This isn't any thing against guys.... Honest! >.<

It's just this particular one.... I will call him J.... There was an aura about him that frightened me for a split moment.... & so I dismissed my feeling, but then the person who was with me told me a little about him.

"You see that man, he would kill for us...." & I was like,
--jaw goes to the floor--

My 1st mind said.... "This is a killer....!" & then someone comes a minute later to confirm my thought! SPOOKY! & it wasn't a figure of speech! I started to get possible details about what would be done.... Jeez!!!

Now that's one guy I will leave alone at all costs.... Actually, I need to find out if he has any family, so I can stay clear of those individuals. OH MY WORD!

It was just something about his eyes.... I mean, I guess the way of putting it is that something just didn't add up about the guy. Not being judgemental or anything, my mind just said something was OFF some place.

skinny, calm, quiet, soft spoken, loves to garden = too good to be true!

Oddity #1: gold teeth in his mouth (I think it's all of them.... but I can't see where he would've gotten the money. That's just my poor sight right there.)

Oddity #2: When I saw him, he like peeked at me a little & then moved far enough away, so that I could not see him really. (I was in the passenger's seat of the car.) I wondered to myself, "What does he have to hide?" I mean I'm not drop dead gorgeous that he would be shy.... & the thing he most likely thought was that I was his friend's woman.... soo..... weird!

Oddity #3: his eyes.... His whole every thing says innocence but his eyes said something else.... (I just don't know what exactly....)


Freak out #1: Man crept out like a ninja. (Enough said....) I said he likes to garden... So my friend called for him & like I thought I heard a response.... but didn't see any thing... We looked & we looked & we looked.... Didn't see any thing.... No signs of life any place...

Then, all of a sudden, there he was! Jeez, I could have had a heart attack!