random thoughts: pt. 4

[WabiSabi]

sometimes the one thing we care genuinely about, doesn't work, while other less meaningful interactions happen easily, and work out even if we don't intend to.

why? - this is a very old human question.

may be the difficult answer is: being genuine doesn't guarantee a relationship, so does the truth.

sometimes we suffer more from uncertainty than from reality, may be that's why i found my solace when i left the place.

that won't change the fact that we cared for each other, but perhaps, what ended that night was not just the connection, perhaps it was the cycle of waiting.

we all can be sincere, have good intentions, and care deeply

yet, timings can be wrong, fears can interfere, ppl can want different things, connections can fade.

i feel, the universe doesn't not operate on "the most genuine person gets their wishes fulfilled" - coz if it did, nobody would ever experienced heartbreak. may be thats why i am envious of the ppl who can get things work for themselves even if they don't work hard enough for it.

as a wise man once said, "we all are entitled to actions, but not to the outcomes"

i am not concluding that being genuine is pointless.

i conclude, the need, to learn how to stay genuine, without letting fear make me run away.