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Im standing on the edge

Posted: Sun Jun 14, 2020 9:05 am
by QuercusRubra
The only thing stopping me from giving up is the girl i love. I have loved her since we were kids. Recently, my feelings for her have only gotten stronger and she knows how i feel... at least i think she does. She goes from telling me she loves me, to saying she is embarrassed we had sex, and that she dosent care that i tried to kill myself. I stupidly believed there was still hope but i found out this morning that she has been dating again and the only times we talk is when i check in with her. I ask her "hows work?", "how are you doing?", "what have you been up to?". She replies but it feels forced and she doesn't show any interest in me or my life. She still means the world to me, i would give my life for her without hesitation, but i am losing strength. I dont know how long i can keep this up. Everyday it seems clearer that the easiest option for everyone would be if i wasn't around. I dont think i will ever feel the same for anyone and its killing me