self harm regrets :(
Posted: Mon Mar 26, 2012 7:07 pm
im so saddened and i just cant cope anymore with my scars on top of my depression. how can i heal when i have this constant ugly reminder. and no i dont see them as a badge of honour... it makes me hate myself even more for doing that to myself... so any progress made will always be undone when i look down at my arms. i wish i could start fresh.
i know scars fade... mine usually take 2-3weeks to heal and abit longer to fade... but when i started university 6months ago it was so hard and i self harmed so badly. and these are still very pink and red and not smooth at the surface, theyre not even on their way to healing. whywhywhy it makes me feel like im always going to be stuck this way.
oh man and i just thought about my wedding day. what am i going to do then. i feel like they are never ever ever going to go away
im so upset :'(((((( i need a hugg
i know scars fade... mine usually take 2-3weeks to heal and abit longer to fade... but when i started university 6months ago it was so hard and i self harmed so badly. and these are still very pink and red and not smooth at the surface, theyre not even on their way to healing. whywhywhy it makes me feel like im always going to be stuck this way.
oh man and i just thought about my wedding day. what am i going to do then. i feel like they are never ever ever going to go away
im so upset :'(((((( i need a hugg
