Why Bother...

[crystalgaze]

Why bother with ____________ when

a relationship...my moods are so topsy-turvy
eating...most times I don't actually enjoy my food any way

Hhmm.... Time to mull it over some place....

[crystalgaze]

All right... I've rethought this one....

Here's what I came up with:

Why bother?

Because I get hungry! T.T Foooooddddd!!!!

[aim]

Why bother?

Because there is so much good out there... you just have to open your eyes to see it.

[Monty]

It is good to be seeing posts from both of you. I haven't heard too much from you lately aim.

I am still kicking around.

Must admit that I am in the space now that I often ask the question "why bother" myself.

Maybe we can lean on each other.

[aim]

There are so many reasons to bother for you, Monty girl! Just think of your daughter... your son. Your life! You are a wonderful woman and the world is a much brighter place with you in it. Please always try to keep sight of that. You're important, Monty Girl. I know when physical pain strikes us, it's difficult to feel like anything else matters, but I assure you, it does. YOU matter.

I'm sorry I've been quiet... Please know that you are in my thoughts often and I have missed you.

[crystalgaze]

I feel like going in a corner & just staying there.... (It isn't really a why bother so much as an "I don't feel like facing the world today"....)

[xn728]

hey ((((onika)))),,you stay in the corner if you feel that way ,,remember
when i say i want to run away ,,,,thats when i feel like not facing anything
just rest a while dont go ,away ,,a rest will do you good ,,dont feel alone
im thinking of you ,,,,ken waves ,,,,,,,hugs love (((((onika))))),,xx

[crystalgaze]

All right.... I'll say it.... The reason I wanted to sit in the corner was that I wasn't feeling well.....

I do feel a little better now... I drank some basil-mint tea with lady earl grey & earl grey tea bags in the pitcher, sweetened with honey! ~LOL~

That's some combination, but I had such bad gas, for most of the day... The tea did knock the gas right out of my system.... My poor tummy....

I still have some gas, but it's not as bad as it was earlier....

Thanks Ken! (((((( Ken )))))) ~lol~ I guess I'll hug myself too
((((( Onika )))))

[Monty]

crystal,

I had a friend who went to the emergency room because he had such bad stomach pains. They hooked him up to every machine that was in the room.
He was in so much pain that they gave him some morphine
After he had the morphine they discovered what the problem was.

To his chagrin, he was just full of glass. He even figured that the doctors on the other side of the curtain we, well measuring the intensity of the expulsion of the gas. They kept saying numbers like 7.5, 8.25....

Needless to say my friend was mortified when all this was happening.
I doubt that is the first time that has happened.

You mentioning gas brought that story to mind.

Glad that you are feeling better.

[crystalgaze]

~lol~ Oh jeez! Poor guy! I'm glad mine didn't put me in the ER!
(Oh noes!!!!)

I do feel like sitting in a corner again, but this time I feel like crying too. My eyes have been tearing up again a little....

[dandelion]

(((((((((((((( Crys ))))))))))))))))))

*sits in a corner with you*

I ll bring the sandwich and you need to bring the drinks and then we will talk about whats bothering you. Please know that you have a lot of people here that truly care for you. You are loved! Please feel better soon okay


love
dandelion

[smh]

why bother? hmm i definitely feel like that. some days are better than others. sometimes even the smallest thing will set me off and sometimes its just the moos that i wake up in. when i'm out in college or in work, sometimes i'll just look around and everyone just seems so much happier and better off than me, how is life so easy for them? n why is it so hard for me? and then i think what is the point in making myself go into college everyday when i hate it and have no concentration in classes? i feel like an aliean amongst my friends and just feel like a burden and bore and annoyance to them so whats the point in trying to tell them anything or hang out with them? they all seem to have people that are much more important to them and better things to be doing. do they rhink i'm as pathetic as i feel? do i dread seeing me cuz i cud be in a mood again? and work, just having to smile at the customers all the time and be polite to people when u just feel like hiding inside. most the time i just wana curl up in my room alone. i so wish i didn't feel like this. i hate myself for it and i'm just hoping that these meds will kick in soon and help me see things in a new way