Do I have permission to just scream?

[Jeanne]

Stress has been building up lately. Husband is chronically ill. Work is difficult for him. On his days off, he spends most of his time outside doing yard work. Keeps him from geting stiff. He can't do OT. Money is getting tight. Bounced a check yesterday. Can't talk to him much. He worries about me if I tell him the truth. So I hold it all in. Don't feel connected with him any more. No attraction. Can't go to him for supprt anymore. Stress makes his condition worse. He is trying so hard to get better. How can I dump more on him? If he goes on disability I will have go go back to work. I haven't practiced nursing in over 20 years. Not sure I can handle it. Don't want to kill anyone. What do I do????

Brother-in-law keeps dumping his kids on me to baby sit. He actually thinks he is doing me a favor by letting our kids play together!!!! I have eight kids of my own and he is doing me a favor to watch two more?!?!?!?! I continue to watch them to help out my sister. She is over stressed too.

Blew up yesterday. My brother-in-law's son and my toddler rummaged through my son's and his girl friend's belongings. They are in the middle of a move. They are both in their teens still and living together. She is pregnant. Everything morally wrong. I'm trying to be supportive and gain her trust. Now her belongings are missing, scattered, or broken. We found one lens of a four hundred dollars pair of glasses. don't blame her for hating me. I panicked. I yelled at me sister. Put most of the blame on the kid. Am such a fool!! Most of the stuff has been found.

Just sat on the couch and cried. Didn't care who heard. Husband came out and just held me. Felt good.

Just want to stand on a mountain top and scream and cry. Doubt that would do any good anyway.

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

(((((((((((((( Jeanne ))))))))))))))))

If screaming helps, then by all means, do it. Me, I have locked myself in the bathroom, muffled the screams with a heavy towel. It did and has helped me, releases that tension that builds and builds.

You have a full plate to deal with and others adding to it doesn't help. I know you are helping your sister, is the relationship strong enough for you to be able to talk with her? Just a thought.

Made me smile to know your husband cares, just holding you, giving you strength as he did. I know you are doing all you can to be that 'strong' person for him.

I will give you support, understanding and be here for you. Writing here, posting your thoughts and feelings helps so much. Gets them out and off the mind for awhile. Bunch of good people, that care, gives supporting and do the best any of us can do to understand and be here for you.

Keep posting....will keep you and yours in my thoughts and prayers.

Warmie