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Hello. My name is jane and I'm posting as I've come to a point where I'm so tired, everything is just a big blur.

I have been dealing with depression, although im not sure if thats all it is. I have this kind of emptiness, no thoughts all day and wen i speak to people its fake, not what i really think or feel at all.. its a pretense. but this blank empty mind and thoughts really haunts me.

Does anyone in this world feel this same fog?
a bit random of me, also, but ive been searching the internet sites etc for ages now, i guess for help/answers. If anyone feels this empty mind thing and is willing to skype chat about it pls let me know.

Other than that, i dont know how to make this pass... i feel cursed. Like im being punished? but i feel like i dont deserve this

Depression that is about a chemical imbalance and responds to medication acts like what you are describing.

When I need meds and take them, it's like peeling back the fog, the gray film over my eyes and I can see the world again. My thoughts stay in my brain and don't slip away. I don't need to be with people to have a thought. (I'm an extrovert, so that helps my depression - being with people.)

Best description I ever heard was like having an old fashioned bucket brigade in your head. Each bucket is filled with thoughts and/or impressions of the world around you. Seratonin keeps your bucket from slopping around too much.

When a person is in a balanced healthy state a portion off the top spills around, we ignore billboards we see every day on the way to work, random chatter in cafe's and we don't study every face we see everywhere we go. We let a lot of stuff pass us by and that is part of keeping us sane.

Depression causes us to spill more and more of the stuff in our mental buckets and we barely have enough to put out the urgent fires in our lives in some cases. Been there done that.

Mania is when too MUCH of the stuff in our buckets gets through and a person is counfounded with the need to make sense of it all, but it doesn't necessarily make sense so that sets up a different kind of crazy.

very well described

I just saw this thread. I can totally relate. I do take medication and find that it has helped me a lot. I use to fight it on my own with supplements and exercise. We had family health issues that put me in a place that I could not cope on my own any longer. I had just to much chemical imbalance going on in my brain.
Sometimes, some people just need the medications to get over a bump in the road. Some are off and on them through out their life. I am hoping someday to once again be off of them. But they have made it so much easier on me.