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Posted: **Wed Jan 04, 2012 1:06 am**

My name is Jennifer. I have a son named DJ. He is my world. I am battling with depression. Some days I dont want to get out of bed. My mom makes me feel like I am worthless. I goto school full time, I have a part time job. And she complains I am never home to take care of my son. When my brothers and I were born she stopped working to take care of us full time. I grew up poor and not having the same oppurtunties as other kids. She calls me a bitch, she says to her friends I am not a good mom, She grows threw my stuff when I am not home. She makes me feel like I am not a good mom.

Thats not the only drama.

I am a single mother with a 17 month old child. My sons father is a great guy and an excellent father. But him and I werent together for that long. we were together for 3 months and had sex once. I got pregnant. I kept him. He felt like his life was ruined. His ex-girlfriend that he loved couldnt be with him. And now they are seeing eachother again. It doesnt hurt me because no one can control who they love. I am not in love with him, but i want to do family things with my son. Like father, mother and son things. Sometimes I get choked up when I see families in public.

But wait, theres more....

I am in love with a guy who doesnt even care I exist right now. I dont know what the reason is for him not caring, but it went from so good to so bad in the blink of an eye.

I just want my family to be together... life would be so easy

Posted: **Wed Jan 04, 2012 1:44 am**

It's very hard being a single parent and being so young. I'm sorry your mother isn't more understanding and supportive. As a single parent just where does she think the financial stability will come from if you don't work? I do hope you talk to a counselor. I know it can help so much just to have someone to talk to.

Posted: **Wed Jan 04, 2012 7:03 am**

I just want to say, "I hope you don't believe what she says!!"

It is not easy to go to school full-time, let alone do that & work at the same time. You are doing a good job. The phase you are in will not last forever. Please keep in mind that you are doing what you are doing to give yourself and your son a better life.

I applaud you 110%. (And to try in the midst of depression, it goes up to 200% for me.) You are not home because you are trying to be in a better position to help yourself & your son. I think you should tell your Mom that.

You are trying to make the best of your situation, based on the decisions you have made. At some point, when she starts to be abusive toward you, I think you should ask her whether she would have been proud of you, if you had had an abortion.

The only one who is making a fool of herself is your Mom. Personally, if I were one of her 'friends', I would look at her for saying so many nasty things about her own daughter. In fact, I wouldn't want to be her friend at all because if she can say those things about her own flesh & blood, who the heck am I??

I hope that things get better for you. It may take some subtle standing up for yourself if you haven't already done so. I do not believe it's your fault just like that because some things were beyond your control.

Continue on & don't entertain the negativity. It will NOT last forever.

Posted: **Tue Apr 10, 2012 4:09 am**

Being a single parent is not easy to handle with because you will have a big responsibility.

It deals with many task that we never encounter before and every decision you make always consider the child.

Don't expect with the guy right because you doesn't know what his intentions for you and for the father of your son try to talk to him and set dates or days that you both will spend time to your son.

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