Happy Boxing Day!

[crystalgaze]

Lisaaaa!!!!! (((((((((((((((( Lisa )))))))))))))))))))))

Lisa is sail is ails is ilsa is asil is isla (spanish for island!) is alis (Please tell me you weren't teased in school for it! )

Those were anagrams by the way.... Just giving you a shout!

[xn728]

HEYYYYYYYYY LISA THE WEEKEND IS HERE ,TIME FOR A LITTLE REST , hope you can take a nice walk with mark ,,,,,take it easy lisa ,,,,have a good one ,,,hope your feeling ok ,,,,hugs love ken (((lisa mark)))xxx

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dear lisa how you been today ,,ok i hope ,,the weather has been crap up here ,,,i hope you talk again soon take it easy ,,ken hugs love xxx(((lisa)))

[lisalou]

hi everyone,am fairly ok today but had a really bad few days the end of the week and yesterday I just couldn't face going out or doing much of anything. Feeling very physically decrepit, been on antibiotics which have given me really vicious stomach pains, nausea, headaches have been really bad, chest pains, exhaustion...the list grows..... Been getting really tearful and negative again. Mark has been very supportive though and so have my cats!!! went to a car boot sale this morning and got a really nice photo frame and some black trousers for work which are urgently needed after I crouched down to pick up a baby and the whole gusset of my trousers split!!!!!! Was actually very funny

(p.s for those of you who don't know me,I work in a nursery with babies and toddlers. I don't just randomly pick up strangers babies!!! only the really cute ones..!)

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oh (((((gusset))))) so sorry (((((lisa))))) just cant get gusset out of my mind now ,,,lol,,good to hear your ok ,,,i hope you feel better soon ,ive had trouble with my tummy as you know ,,but its getting better now ,,,,
i hope the coming week is better for you ,,and well hear more from you soon ,,hugs love ken xxxxx,,regards to mark ..(((((.lisa mark))))),xxx
gusset night lisa ,,oh sorry damn it GOODNIGHT LISA

[lisalou]

good gusset ken,oops i mean morning. hope you have a productive and satisfying gusset,oops,day. sorry you have such pain in your gusset - no hang on,that's tummy! - must be very painful with it all twisted!!!!!

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dont feel sad and alone (((((lisa))))),,i can see your down just now ,,
thinking of you ,,hugs love ken xxxxx

[lisalou]

thank you so much ken, have to admit it raised a small smile when i read this thread through again and saw our gusset humour!!!

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yeahhhhh lisa ,,i promise this lisa ,were gonna laugh a lot more on here soon ,,i feel something good is happening even though ive been so ill ,,ive miss you and all my freinds like crazy ,,,you stay safe lisa ,,i soon put a smile on your face again ,,i just need a little longer thats all ,,i always check out the threads even though i dont talk ,,so im here and listening
you take great care lisa ,,the gig will be soon ,,,,id love to see your face if i turned up lol,,,be afraid be very afraid ,,,,,,hee hee hee ,,hugs ,lots of love ken xxxxx

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HEY((((( LISA))))) HOPE YOUR MANAGING TO RELAXE A LITTLE ,,we had about 4 inch of snow this morning ,,,i love the snow ,,lisa ,,but we couldent get out like we normally do ,,,try to rest lisa ,,let the tears go if that what they want to do ,,each tear is a little bit of your trapped soul breacking free ,,and as it does it take a little pain with it ,,take care lisa ,
hope to talk tommorrow ,,hugs (((((lisa)))),,love ken xxx

[lisalou]

no more snow here,just rain rain rain...no more tears either,just feel all foggy and dead inside

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hey lisa ,at least you can get on here and vent a little ,,do you feel better now the tears have stopped ,,to be honest i like crying ,it makes me feel human ,i do feel like depression personifeid a lot of the time ,and i do think maybe im not really all i seem to be ,,consumed,is the word im looking for ,,have you been out today ,or have you been stuck in doors ,
i think maybe when the weather gets warmer lisa ,,we may feel a lot better ,,,i do hope you get a little rest from the pain you deserve better ,,
you were ok a few weeks ago ,,but your like all of us lisa ,the darkness just takes you when you think your doing ok ,,,stay strong lisa always here for you ,,speak again soon hugs love ken ((((((((((lisa)))))))))),,xxxxx

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JUST SAYING HI(((( LISA)))) AS I DO ,,ARE YOU FEELING ANY BETTER i know you were quite down i wished for things to pick up for you i hope they have ,,,mich has posted again so im pleasedd to know shes ok ,,,hope to hear from you soon lisa ,,hugs love kenny,,(((((lisa)))),,xxxxx

[lisalou]

Hi Ken...don't feel right at all, have been more depressed this last week than I have for ages, feel like I'm back to square one, back in the mist again. have been swinging between feelings of absolute numbness and bleakness, then exteme pain and tears, then very irritable...poor mark is driving me absolutely crazy and he's not doing anything wrong or out of the ordinary. have lots of old anger toward my mum bubbling up - am seeing her on saturday and am dreading it. it's nearly the first anniversary of my nana's death which is bringing up all sorts of sad memories. it's my birthday on tuesday and I just can't face it. have been having strong thoughts of suicide and have been getting very dissociated again,like i'm stuck in a bad acid trip. the mirtazapine is not helping one bit,just making me even more drowsy. Takes me an hour to properly wake up each morning. another side effect can be weight gain,i have put on a few more pounds but then i have been bingeing for England and have been for some time,feel a right fat old cow and hate myself even more. Am seeing my support worker and a psychiatrist up at the hospital quite a bit,they don't say much other than to go up to A and E if the suicidal urges get strong. they suggested apiprozole a.k.a
Abilfy which is an atypical antipsychotic / neuroleptic but i looked up the potential side effects on the internet and thought NO WAY

Too tired and brain-fogged to write any more. I hope tomorrow will be a better day for myself and for all my forum family

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Dearest (((((lisa))))),,never let those thoughts of suicide ,overtake you ,
we all love you here ,and if anything happened to you ,the pain would be to great to bear ,,we all think of suicide now and then when were desperate and we feel there is nowere to turn ,,i feel this way now lisa ,,the meds ,and the codine have just wrecked me and i dont who i am or what im doing ,,so just stick with it lisa ,it is going to pass ,i think we both know that ,,dont be to hard on mark ,,sometimes i can get annoyed with fran and the girls when i feel this way to ,,so dont feel to bad about that ,,you be walking on the beech holding hands again before you know it ,hey birthday on tuesday ,,,mmm we,ll even if your not looking forward to it ,,there will be a birthday message from me on tuesday weather you like it or not ,,,cant say much about your mum lisa ,,blew mine away all those years ago ,,i do see her now and then since she had her stroke ,,but she is nothing to me ,,just a strange old lady ,,maybe theres something in last line for you lisa ,do you love her ,,,i can tell you this ,i deserve to die for not having known or loved my mother ,,do your best lisa
you can never be like me .your certanly not a fat old cow lisa ,your just having a bad time just now ,,forgot how many times ive heard fran say that ,,,and im sorry about your nanna lisa but you must remember shes always with you ,in the air you breath and the tears you cry ,,you may hear her voice on the a gentle breeze and see and feel her smile in the warmth of the sun ,,she,ll be with you lisa and she wont let you hurt yourself ok lisa im gonna go now ,,hope to talk again soon ,,you take very good care ,,and i know you will feel better soon ,,,
lots of love ,and hugs kenny xxxxxxx,,,,go on give mark a hug for me xx