Happy Boxing Day!

[lisalou]

Hi Mich, hi Ken... been ok, not too bad. Mark is interested in the Clash album,he asks how is it different from the UK version. We've had loads more snow here, it's really beautiful in the park, looks like Narnia!

Saw the psychiatrist yesterday, he suggested I try Mirtazipine (knwn as Zispin in uk, Remeron US) I was very wary as i've heard it causes weight gain and i have eating disorder issues but looking on the internet it looks like it's not that it puts on weight in itself, it just increases your appetite,as long as i eat healthy low-cal snacks i should be ok (easier said than done!!!) Having said that amitryptiline is meant to cause weight gain too and i didn't, i even lost about 40 pounds (rampant anorexia will beat all medication) Mirtazipine looks pretty good,on the internet it said in a recent survey it was thought better than all the other anti-d's and it shouldn't upset my IBS or sleep or give me panic attacks like most other meds do to me. so i think i might give it a go (p.s one 'side effect' was possible increased sex drive and spontaneous orgasms. sounds fun!!!!!)

Work is ok and I have built up the confidence to ask my two closest workmates over to dinner next Tuesday. Life is much better but I feel scared that I'll jinx it!!!!!

[xn728]

lisa good lord ,,sex drive ,,orghasms ,,,hold on me and fran are on our way down forsome of those lol ,,seriously though hope it does you good ,its good to hear from you ,and knowing you are doing good is a lift for me ,,ok the clash albums ,the american version has a couple of extra trax ,,both covers and art work are the same ,,im in bed now ,but ill list the trax tommorrow
so he can see ,,got it for 2.50 second hand ,,but it looks like new ,,lol as you know the clash and damned are my favourite bands ,so anything to do with them .i buy ,,im listening to a punk cd now ..lots of good stuff
does mark remember wayne county and the electric chairs ,,later became
jayne county ,,the buzzcocks have just been on orgasham addict ,,,,
the tubes white punks on dope ,,ahhhh heaven ,,ok lisa ill put clash trax on this thread tommorrow ,,during day ,,im not working tommorrow ,,enough of me now this is your thread ,,hows work going ,do you feel better for those tabs your taking or does it take a while ,,
you sound upbeat ,i think this year will be good for us lisa ,,lets try to have a few laughs again ,,well all feel good when this weather lifts ,,take care lisa ,,regards to mark ,,speak soon hugs the both of you ken xxx

[crybaby1086]

Hey Lisa, I'm so happy to here you are doing so well Keep on moving forward you are doing wonderfull!!!

[lisalou]

yep, mark does indeed remember wayne county, says he has a white vinyl album of theirs, haven't actually started the Mirtazipine yet,think I will agree to it at next week's appointment, gotta go,our tea is burning, i may be a bit happier but i am still a s**t cook!

[xn728]

ok lisa yeah ive got the single the most well known one ,,mark will know the title ,if i put it on here id be,in trouble ,,ive got a lot of stuff ,on down loads ,if he ever fancies a list let me know ill put something together on
mp3 for him ,,,still snowing here ,,i like it cheers me up ,,,nearly went
on my arse though ,,me and fran were walking in town i was holding her arm so she did not slip ,,but when i started to go ,,its amazing how fast she let go of my arm lol ,,were going to wetherspoons for breackfast in the morning ,i bet theres one near you hey lisa ,,,,,good and cheap ,,,,
ok lisa ill be watching ted soon gonna shut down for night ,,might download some tunes whilst im watching tv ,,ive rambeled again sorry
you wont jinx your freinds coming over lisa it will be good for you ,this is what we have to do change things. good lisa make it happen yeahhhhhhhh
see you soon lisa take care ,,in my thoughts ,,hugs ken xxx

[Mich]

Lisa - I am so happy you are feeling well. That is wonderful news. It makes me feel so good to know that you are well. I think you should try the Remeron. I tried it and it actually worked well but my anorexic self did not like the increased hunger. It has a good reputation for being very effective and I think if you can have those low cal snacks around, you will do very well.
I am so proud of you for planning to have work mates over for dinner. That is a really brave step and a really important one towards having a normal life. You can do it! And I bet you are a pretty good cook because I hold the record for being the worst cook on earth! I wish my family would just eat stir fried vegetables every night like I do but they won't go for that.
Keep up the great work little sister. Love always, Mich.

[xn728]

hey lisa mark just popped in to say hi,hope your still ok lisa
the clash uk album has
janie jones
remote control
im so bored with the usa
white riot
hate and war
whats my name
deny
londons burning
career opertunities
cheat
protex blue
police and theives
48 hours
garageland

the us version is the same but has
clash city rockers
complete control
whiteman in hammersmith palais
i fought the law
jail guitar doors
added ,,,,,,,,and is minus white riot
janie jones
protex blue
deny
cheat ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,ok i prefer the uk version but its nice having both ,,,,,,my favourite clash track of these albums mmmmmmmmmma toss up beetween janie jones and whats my name
hope this make sense ,im a bit cranky today see you soon ,hugs ken xx

PS LISA FATHER TED TONIGHT EPISODE 3 MY LOVELY HORSE LOL XXX

[Monty]

Lisa,

As so many others have said, I am glad that you are doing better.

I can certainly commiserate with Mark. I have a very sore back these days. Before I get too much sympathy, my back was sore on Tuesday. When I figured I really messed it up was on Tuesday evening. My own foolishness did the further damage.

52 year old women (much out of shape to boot) should not try to play lazer tag. It was a lot of fun. But I should have listened to that little voice in my head that has declined to play before, but they have more fun with the more people who played, so I did.

I think that part of the problem was that I was playing with some 20 somethings. It really was fun so I will do it again.

Things are going poorly with my mom, but at least I am cutting loose sometimes and having good time, with good friends.

Again, glad to hear that you are doing better. I was on Remeron many years ago but can't remember why I stopped it.

Take care

[xn728]

just wanted to say hello again lisa ,,i hope your still feeling ok ,,,the wethers not gonna be too bad tommorrow,,might be a nice day for a walk on the beach ,,me and fran are going to town again tommorrow ,,so
i hope it goes ok ,,,talk to you soon lisa ,,,take care hugs ken xxxx

[xn728]

HI LISA how are you today ,,feeling alright i hope ,,,,weathers not to bad here ,a little milder ,,hope you had a walk today ,,,,,ok just saying hi
take care hugs ken xxx

[xn728]

hey lisa ,your quiet and im a bit worryed about you ,,your just resting hopefully and not poorly ,,thinking lots about you anyway ,,let us know how you are ,,if you feel up to it ,,,hugs ken xxx

[Mich]

Hi Lisa - I am also wondering how you are doing. I hope all is well.

[shatteredhopes]

(((((((((lisa))))))))))) hope the lack of posts is because you are doing well and busy with life...please post when you can...nice to see one of us doing a bit better!

[xn728]

HI LISA JUST ADDING TO WHAT S/HOPES AND MICH SAID HOPE YOUR BUSY AND NOT TO POORLY sorry about caps lock ,,lol,,,hope your feeling ok and things are still going ok ,,hope works ok ,,and marks keeping we,ll
see you soon lisa ,,hugs ken xxx

[lisalou]

Hi everone, i'm so sorry i've been gone so long, this week has flown by. Well I've been very busy and extremely tired. I had my friends over for dinner tuesday night and despite getting extremely anxious about it beforehand and having my OCD spiral off into overdrive cleaning the flat, it was a real success. My friends enjoyed the meal and best of all it was nice just to have a quiet girly night in and realise i do have people who love me and who i can trust to talk to

Work continues to be hard but fun,i try to do something to relax me after. I find it is really helpful to talk to myself in the calm,loving way i do to the children and try not to listen to the sadistic voice of my depression.

Me and mark's relationship is still going from strength to strength. He is directing a play in May and i helped him run the auditions for it last weekend,it is flattering that he wants me involved

I am still in a lot of pain with almost constant headaches and stomachaches and sometimes really sharp chest pain after times of anxiety. Often I can feel feelings of sadness try to creep back in but I try to nip them in the bud before it gets too bad

I have even been well enough to start reading again which is really exciting,it's nice to have a bit of my mind back and I am having a bit of a Margaret Atwood revival,re-reading all her books.

I am still writing lots of poetry! Actually managed to write one today that wasn't about depression or death so maybe I truly have turned a corner!!!!

Monty,it's great to hear you had so much fun playing laser tag! It's always good to be able to let go of things for a moment and play!