I SEE NO END TO THIS..

[szatsme]

I have been depressed for years. I have saught help and am on a lot of meds. I have a psychiatrist. This episode is lasting several months now and I can't find a way out. I don't want to exist. I'm unemployed due to a lay off and I've been at that company for 20 years. I don't want to be around others, yet I don't want to be by myself. My family encourages me, but again, I see no way out. I haven't felt (any emotion) at all. I look for jobs, but know I am incompetent. Nothing changes. I wish I were someone else. I want the real me to come out, but it won't. I neglect everything. My poor cats. They want attention and I can't give it to them. Everything is a chore. I've been searching for depression chat rooms for days on end and most of them have expired or have been out-dated. I do have suicidal thoughts but know I won't do it. I'm even that stupid, I wouldn't know what to do. My hair comes out wrong everyday. It's an effort to shower. I am a robot. I tell my sister who calls everyday that I go out for walks, but I DON'T. I hear tomorrow is a new day, so what? It's been the same day for me for months. I can't stand it anymore. My computer skills are limited, I constantly make mistakes. It's hard being me, I don't wish it upon anyone.!!!!!!!!!!

[hey-its-ok]

Hey szatsme, Your family and your sister looks like a very good source of support for you. Talk to them, be honest with them, and maybe even try taking their advice. since you have depression, your understanding and feelings about yourself and about life will tend to be pessimistic and unclear, talking to your family and your sister, and taking their advice may allow you to act on a more objective and clearer path. There is always a way out just give it your best and see what happens! All the best.

[szatsme]

My FAMILY is very supportive. I don't know what I'd do without them. They encourage me all the time. I just can't seem to break out of this cycle. I'm going to see a therapist tomorrow. I hope it works. I thank you for your post.

[Emotional_77]

goodluck with your therapist hun.

[Annie Bankss]

I know how frustrating it can be when you have lost ur job. Sometimes nothing happens the way we think and as we become pessimistic it forms a pattern in our life and you feel u have lost control in ur life.

We have to start thinking positively I know it's not easy but we have to put in all our effort. You are telling ur family has been very supportive dont u think how happy they wud be see to u lead a normal life. You dont have to think losing job is the end of life. If nobody is hiring u forget it there r many other ways to earn money. You need to begin by thinking positively. It is now upto u whether u want to take control of ur life .