Feeling isolated and so anxious all the time

[CrazyLady17]

I want to be able to have someone close to me, but at the same time I want to isolate myself forever and a day.
What on earth is wrong with me lately? Argh

[CrazyLady17]

Just want to curl up in a ball and curl under my duvet and block the whole wide world out and just sleep forever and ever... I feel like isolating myself- as that way I won't be hurting anyone, letting anyone down, disappointing anyone and most of all making anyone sad and upset because I tell them how I feel. Feel like bottling everything up again...

Argh this is horrible.

[TheConsciousWind]

Do not let the world defeat you, no matter what your view of it. Do not worry about the expectations of others, as it is your own that must be sought. Parents are often guilty of placing their expectations on their children, obeying the pressures of man's world. People should not be putting worldly "requirements" before the happiness/acceptance of their loved ones.

[CrazyLady17]

Ah thank you... I think...
But it's easier said than done though. I mean I am only 17 and still growing and learning and depression wasn't on my list of growing up.

[CrazyLady17]

Just going to isolate myself from the world and from myself. That way I won't be hurting or putting anyone in any kind of danger. I may as well curl up in a tight tight ball and isolate myself in my duvet and that way I won't be able to do anything I'll regret later on in life.

[CrazyLady17]

Feeling so isolated and anxious again and don't exactly know why I feel this way? Could it be the depression talking you think? Or could it just be that I want to isolate myself from the world? Hmm I wonder what it is...

These thoughts are playing on my mind big time.