my situation
Posted: Sat Apr 09, 2016 12:17 am
I'm a 22 year old female. I struggle with depression. I have been to therapy, group therapy, CBT, seen a counselor and have tried a number of different medications. I still am working with medication.
I have had some traumatic events in the past that I think are effecting the way I see the world now, but right now, my life is good and I do have it very easy you could say.
I am currently about to graduate college, I am terrified. Recently, more than usual, I have been experiencing a lot of self doubt and negative, illogical thoughts.
I feel like everyone at my school secretly hates me for some reason. They will talk bad about other students but then are very kind to their face and you would think they were absolutely the best of friends.
I treat everyone at school with respect, and they do to me as well. So with that in mind I kind of know it's all in my head that they dislike me. But there is always a part of me that feels as though I am, not a victim, but more like a loser.
It's effecting my life most of the time but there are still moments when I am happy. I can control some things to an extent. But I am in a bit of a slump plus have the graduation pressure going on.
I feel like I am going to fail in life and that people will always hate me. That feeling and thought is constantly lingering in my mind no matter how hard I or anyone else tries to prove it wrong.
I have had some traumatic events in the past that I think are effecting the way I see the world now, but right now, my life is good and I do have it very easy you could say.
I am currently about to graduate college, I am terrified. Recently, more than usual, I have been experiencing a lot of self doubt and negative, illogical thoughts.
I feel like everyone at my school secretly hates me for some reason. They will talk bad about other students but then are very kind to their face and you would think they were absolutely the best of friends.
I treat everyone at school with respect, and they do to me as well. So with that in mind I kind of know it's all in my head that they dislike me. But there is always a part of me that feels as though I am, not a victim, but more like a loser.
It's effecting my life most of the time but there are still moments when I am happy. I can control some things to an extent. But I am in a bit of a slump plus have the graduation pressure going on.
I feel like I am going to fail in life and that people will always hate me. That feeling and thought is constantly lingering in my mind no matter how hard I or anyone else tries to prove it wrong.