They won't go away
Posted: Fri Mar 15, 2013 10:04 am
Hi, my names Jonathan. I need more feedback on this beside myself, which is pretty much the problem.
I've been having a lot of trouble with school for a long time now. Almost every other morning before I have to leave I start to think about things. It usually starts small like "I'm tired, and I don't want to go to school.", but this starts a snowball effect. I keep thinking about how I just want to stay in bed, then keep telling myself to get going, eventually I'm having an argument with myself. I can't summon the will to get up, then I feel pathetic for feeling this way. I start getting angry at myself, while I'm also trying to reassure myself, while I'm also trying to reason with myself. Eventually it feels like every part of my brain is fighting against each other and I can't make it stop no matter how hard I try. Everything I do or think just makes it worse, so all I can do is wait for the thoughts to go away.
I've been having a lot of trouble with school for a long time now. Almost every other morning before I have to leave I start to think about things. It usually starts small like "I'm tired, and I don't want to go to school.", but this starts a snowball effect. I keep thinking about how I just want to stay in bed, then keep telling myself to get going, eventually I'm having an argument with myself. I can't summon the will to get up, then I feel pathetic for feeling this way. I start getting angry at myself, while I'm also trying to reassure myself, while I'm also trying to reason with myself. Eventually it feels like every part of my brain is fighting against each other and I can't make it stop no matter how hard I try. Everything I do or think just makes it worse, so all I can do is wait for the thoughts to go away.