All About Me
Posted: Mon Apr 16, 2012 1:44 am
Hello everyone, I am new here so I thought I would introduce myself as well as give everyone a bit of info on me. I'll probably be posting in the Introductions forum shortly just to say hi, but I thought this would be a better place to go into more detail on myself. So here it goes:
My name is Radley, I am nineteen years old and I am female. I live with my parents and seven year old sister. I have three pets, a dog, a Red-Footed Tortoise, and a Leopard Gecko. I'm attending college right now for Visual Communications, but my semester is almost over and I am currently visiting schools where I can become an esthetician (totally different areas, I know ). I do not currently have a job, but I am always on the lookout.
I have an eternal love for movies. I can sit and watch movies all day and night. Pretty much anything Fantasy, Sci-Fi, or Action. I'm also a huge fan of books. Pretty much in the same sort of genres as the movies. As far as music goes, I tend to stick to pop and rock. Most of my music library consists of Adam Lambert, David Bowie, Tokio Hotel, and Cinema Bizarre. I have many more favorites and I listen to much more than that, but those are the main ones.
More on my lifestyle, I am constantly becoming more and more of a health nut. I am nearly vegan simply because of all my allergies, I am always ready to look into natural foods and remedies before anything else. I also meditate regularly to relieve my stress and depression.
Another thing I would like to add to this section that seems to be mostly about just me and my lifestyle is that I am pan-sexual, and "gender-queer" I'm not very fond of these terms, but it's what makes sense to people. I was born and am physically female, but I have always felt like there is a second side to me, a whole other, male, person occupying my mind and body, but at the same time, he is still me. I accept and embrace my alternate personality. When I take him on, I dress, act, and speak differently in some ways. I am completely willing to go into more detail on this individually or answer anyones questions, it's just too much to explain right here.
Now onto my problems...
I do have chronic depression. I also have been diagnosed with ADD, Tourettes Syndrome, very mild epilepsy, and narcolepsy. I'm also currently being "observed" to be tested for short term memory loss as well as Dissociative Identity Disorder. I probably spelled that wrong or messed it up in some way, but hopefully you know what I was trying to say.
On top of these "medical" problems, I am an extremely shy person to the point of where it interferes with my life majorly at times. I am very self-concious even though I don't like to admit it, which doesn't help with my nearly non-existant self-esteem and self-confidence. My family is also violently against anything LGBT, which I whole-heartedly support and am part of myself. I have to hide this from them and always fear them finding out. I also fear them finding out that I am engaged. They do not want me dating at all and they met my fiancé five years ago when we first started dating and immediately hated him and told him to stay away from me or they would take action against him. We've been together despite this for five years and engaged for nearly two of those years now. We've had to keep a somewhat long-distance relationship which is stressful to us both and my fiancé can get very angry or upset at times. He would never hurt me physically and does his best not to hurt me emotionally (everyone says things they don't really mean every now and then right? He always apologizes and makes sure I'm okay.) No matter what we go through though, he is my biggest support along with my best friend, who I have known for almost eight years. We are closer than sisters with each other and I know I can go to her and rely on her. But she is in college as well now and is busier than I am so it's getting more and more difficult to spend time with her or even talk to her.
So yeah, this is all I could think to write right now. It's probably really long (small screen) but it's still probably not finished. I'll likely be updating as I think of things and as I open up more.
My name is Radley, I am nineteen years old and I am female. I live with my parents and seven year old sister. I have three pets, a dog, a Red-Footed Tortoise, and a Leopard Gecko. I'm attending college right now for Visual Communications, but my semester is almost over and I am currently visiting schools where I can become an esthetician (totally different areas, I know ). I do not currently have a job, but I am always on the lookout.
I have an eternal love for movies. I can sit and watch movies all day and night. Pretty much anything Fantasy, Sci-Fi, or Action. I'm also a huge fan of books. Pretty much in the same sort of genres as the movies. As far as music goes, I tend to stick to pop and rock. Most of my music library consists of Adam Lambert, David Bowie, Tokio Hotel, and Cinema Bizarre. I have many more favorites and I listen to much more than that, but those are the main ones.
More on my lifestyle, I am constantly becoming more and more of a health nut. I am nearly vegan simply because of all my allergies, I am always ready to look into natural foods and remedies before anything else. I also meditate regularly to relieve my stress and depression.
Another thing I would like to add to this section that seems to be mostly about just me and my lifestyle is that I am pan-sexual, and "gender-queer" I'm not very fond of these terms, but it's what makes sense to people. I was born and am physically female, but I have always felt like there is a second side to me, a whole other, male, person occupying my mind and body, but at the same time, he is still me. I accept and embrace my alternate personality. When I take him on, I dress, act, and speak differently in some ways. I am completely willing to go into more detail on this individually or answer anyones questions, it's just too much to explain right here.
Now onto my problems...
I do have chronic depression. I also have been diagnosed with ADD, Tourettes Syndrome, very mild epilepsy, and narcolepsy. I'm also currently being "observed" to be tested for short term memory loss as well as Dissociative Identity Disorder. I probably spelled that wrong or messed it up in some way, but hopefully you know what I was trying to say.
On top of these "medical" problems, I am an extremely shy person to the point of where it interferes with my life majorly at times. I am very self-concious even though I don't like to admit it, which doesn't help with my nearly non-existant self-esteem and self-confidence. My family is also violently against anything LGBT, which I whole-heartedly support and am part of myself. I have to hide this from them and always fear them finding out. I also fear them finding out that I am engaged. They do not want me dating at all and they met my fiancé five years ago when we first started dating and immediately hated him and told him to stay away from me or they would take action against him. We've been together despite this for five years and engaged for nearly two of those years now. We've had to keep a somewhat long-distance relationship which is stressful to us both and my fiancé can get very angry or upset at times. He would never hurt me physically and does his best not to hurt me emotionally (everyone says things they don't really mean every now and then right? He always apologizes and makes sure I'm okay.) No matter what we go through though, he is my biggest support along with my best friend, who I have known for almost eight years. We are closer than sisters with each other and I know I can go to her and rely on her. But she is in college as well now and is busier than I am so it's getting more and more difficult to spend time with her or even talk to her.
So yeah, this is all I could think to write right now. It's probably really long (small screen) but it's still probably not finished. I'll likely be updating as I think of things and as I open up more.