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Posted: Sat Jun 19, 2010 6:57 pm
Im 24 years old, I was supposed to have been married this summer, but the girl left me, but im better off without her, now I can take an education. Atleast thats what I tell myself but I regulary have dreams about her where im with her again. She also had an child that I saw as my own. But thats not why im here. I always had an tendency to depression, even though I really have no reason for it, I have great friends, and an generally good life. But I guess depression doesnt have to make sense?
I think my biggest problem was to admit that I am depressed, I feel like I shouldnt be, and that theres something wrong with me for being depressed.. Its hard to explain how I feel, but I guess the basic is that I just dont understand why I am depressed and the next guy isn't.. I always had an hard time talking with new people, but always had an core group of friends that I love very much.
When I drink I become an entirely different person, I talk with people, make jokes, and people seem to like me when im affected of alcohol. Its also when im affected by alcohol that I tend to meet most of the people I meet. I know drinking is bad and all, but its not an addiction.. yet atleast, I only drink once every week or every 2. week.
I seem to just ramble, I guess what im trying to figure out is why im feeling as I do.. Becouse im tired of it.. Atleast im tired of just ignoring it
I think my biggest problem was to admit that I am depressed, I feel like I shouldnt be, and that theres something wrong with me for being depressed.. Its hard to explain how I feel, but I guess the basic is that I just dont understand why I am depressed and the next guy isn't.. I always had an hard time talking with new people, but always had an core group of friends that I love very much.
When I drink I become an entirely different person, I talk with people, make jokes, and people seem to like me when im affected of alcohol. Its also when im affected by alcohol that I tend to meet most of the people I meet. I know drinking is bad and all, but its not an addiction.. yet atleast, I only drink once every week or every 2. week.
I seem to just ramble, I guess what im trying to figure out is why im feeling as I do.. Becouse im tired of it.. Atleast im tired of just ignoring it