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Well what do ya think about this. Here it is Memorial Day weekend, am totally all alone in my apartment. I thought I had one friend that really cared but apparently I don't. He is involved with a new girlfriend and apparently he has no time for me even though I have met the new girlfriend and they both say they are here for me. What a crock! I cannot leave the apartment because I have no money for gas, and no money for anything. So here I sit on the laptop daily 24/7 because I have nothing else. No one cares at all. What am I suppose to do? There is no one to come around and check on me to see if I am alive or what. I am totally all alone in the world. My phone is also out of order because I cannot pay the bill or even buy minutes to put on it. No one cares whether I'm around anymore or not except God, and I'm starting to wonder whether he cares anymore either.

(((((((((( twokat )))))))))))))

I know this is just the internet, but there are people here that care, as you will see.

Releasing your feelings helps so much. Keep posting....

Warmie

i two am broke and struggling to pay bills
i have no true friend but my parot
i dont like going out as i am a very nervous person
but i make myself get out the house two times a forgnight to even just sit in a park or window shop even if only for few hours
im missunderstood most times i open my mouth im taken wrong
i dont care what others think anymore
i am my own friend and company
its more content when you know you can actually spend time alone knowing you can be happy with in yourself
dont get me wrong im still lonley here and their but i dont feel i need friends anymore
i just need to know i am true tomyself for myself if nobody likes it its their lose
cheer up take your self on a picnic even if all you eat is pennutte butter sangers getting out for air will help

((((((((((((((( comphtibaly numb )))))))))))))))

Sounds like you are finding that solid ground with being who you are. This is good. You are learning to like yourself, the rest will fall into place, keep believing.

Warmie

After my husband died, i isolated myself. I quit my job. I now sit in my house and can't get back out unless my daughter goes with me. And now that she is married and has her own kids that just doesn't happen very often anymore. So I know how you feel. With no life insurance, no job, and only a small pension i'm almost always broke and having to borrow money to finish out the month in food. I do now this.... the longer you maintain this lifestyle, the harder it is to break. Even if you have to force yourself to do it, go sit outside on your porch for an evening and count the stars or count how many red cars drive by or something, anything to get outside those 4 walls. I know you feel alone, but you aren't. You now have a home here with a lot of people who really care.

I wish you the best.

((((((((((((((( comphtibaly numb )))))))))))))))

Just wanted to point out that (((((((( Obayan )))))))))))) is one of the smartest, kindest people I know and her words are words of wisdom.

Warmie