Depression Understood Forums

I stumbled upon this website a couple of hours ago. Already I can tell, from reading a few posts, that there are so many people that I have so much in common with: thoughts, feelings, etc. It's comforting to know that I'm not alone. I've never been diagnosed by a doctor, but I know that I have some sort of depressive/bipolar disorder. I first noticed my depression when I was 19. Now I'm 26.

Tonight I felt myself falling down the dark abyss of sadness, so I searched to see if I could find something to ease the loneliness. I purposefully isolate myself when I have opportunities to make friendships because I don't have the desire to put myself out there, yet I get sad when I realize how much I've isolated myself. It's just a terrible cycle that I can't seem to break.

I'm hoping to involve myself in this forum to help those around me, as well as myself

By the way, my name is Lena.

Lisa, beleive me, I understand how you feel. I never say I know how you feel; that's impossible. Perhaps it's now time to check with your MD and after a full physical, ask for a referral to a good pdoc. In the meantime, stop in at the chatroom here in DU, and meet a oot of people that also undersatnd. And for what it's worth, welcome home.