Hi All,
I'm new here and so scared..... I was off for several months last year with depression, it ended up with me being made redundant, (blessing in disguise), getting in all sorts of bother financially. Thought things would be better, i got a new job, i started 4th jan. The trouble is i'm sooo scared that ive started to go down the same old path....my sleep is distrupted....im having bad dreams about all sorts, mainly about xmas.....i have no enthusiasm for anything, even my new job. I feel lonely, i feel as though i darednt tell my wife, bless her she put up with so much last year i dont think i can put her through it again. I'm on anti depressants, ive spoke to a counsellor....just the once and whilst i can talk the talk....i knw what ive got to do...i just can't do it.....
Just dont want to be alone anymore....
Hello......
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oh my dear freind you sound just like me ,,not telling the wife so i dont worry her ,,i know how hard that is ,,and the hard strain of being without money and feeling ill ,,i cant fix you my freind but believe me i do understand ,,,we can only offer you support here , we can listen to how you feel and hopefully give you some kind words to help make you feel a little better ,,you must not feel alone anymore ,,we are a big family here ,
and we share much love and kind feelings for each other ,,once you feel able .talk some more ..and you will soon have many new freinds ,,i hope you find what your looking for ,and the warmth of this forum, will soon touch your heart . im sorry but you must go on ,dont give in to the darkness ,read some storys here they may give you some strentgh ,im sure your wife will love and support you ,she may find this illness hard to understand ,but shes there for you my freind that i do know ,,,reach out my freind and we will catch your fall ,,,,,,
welcome home ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,hugs xn728 xxx
and we share much love and kind feelings for each other ,,once you feel able .talk some more ..and you will soon have many new freinds ,,i hope you find what your looking for ,and the warmth of this forum, will soon touch your heart . im sorry but you must go on ,dont give in to the darkness ,read some storys here they may give you some strentgh ,im sure your wife will love and support you ,she may find this illness hard to understand ,but shes there for you my freind that i do know ,,,reach out my freind and we will catch your fall ,,,,,,
welcome home ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,hugs xn728 xxx
Welcome,
I hope that people aren't getting too tired of reading this (because I seem to say it in every post I write, but in every post I think that the individual needs to hear it) but you have found a safe place to let out your feelings.
Often, it is true that we don't want to worry the people that are closest to us when things are going poorly. Especially if you have (like I) a history of mental illness.
I think that for family it just causes them panic, because they aren't sure of the right thing to do to "fix" things up.
I always strongly advise people to go to a therapist or to come here, and let out your feelings. Don't get me wrong we do care, but in a different way.
Do like I do. Just sit down at the computer, turn the editor in your brain off, and let your fingers go. We are a pretty tough lot, and have heard a lot of pain.
Though it does hurt us to read of some of the pain that others are suffering, a lot of times it seems theraputic to the poster to just let all of those deep, dark feelings out.
Hope to read more about you later.
I hope that people aren't getting too tired of reading this (because I seem to say it in every post I write, but in every post I think that the individual needs to hear it) but you have found a safe place to let out your feelings.
Often, it is true that we don't want to worry the people that are closest to us when things are going poorly. Especially if you have (like I) a history of mental illness.
I think that for family it just causes them panic, because they aren't sure of the right thing to do to "fix" things up.
I always strongly advise people to go to a therapist or to come here, and let out your feelings. Don't get me wrong we do care, but in a different way.
Do like I do. Just sit down at the computer, turn the editor in your brain off, and let your fingers go. We are a pretty tough lot, and have heard a lot of pain.
Though it does hurt us to read of some of the pain that others are suffering, a lot of times it seems theraputic to the poster to just let all of those deep, dark feelings out.
Hope to read more about you later.
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crystalgaze
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Roblu,
I was just catching up on my email and can see that we havent heard from you for a bit.
It is funny because I went to my counsellor this morning and I was most able to tell him what my problems were. When it came to the solutions, I even know that.
I seem to have quite a lot of difficulty trying implementing the answers that would make my life easier.
On the other hand. It is a lot easier to talk about what I should do with my life when in his office.
Sometimes it seems like he doesnt realize that it is difficult to get enough energy together to take my next breath.
Hope all is well with you.
I was just catching up on my email and can see that we havent heard from you for a bit.
It is funny because I went to my counsellor this morning and I was most able to tell him what my problems were. When it came to the solutions, I even know that.
I seem to have quite a lot of difficulty trying implementing the answers that would make my life easier.
On the other hand. It is a lot easier to talk about what I should do with my life when in his office.
Sometimes it seems like he doesnt realize that it is difficult to get enough energy together to take my next breath.
Hope all is well with you.
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