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Hi what a fantastic site this is!......I have been depressed for a while now and for some reason haven't thought of getting advice from the net b4.

I moved from my home town 3 yrs ago as my the father to my 2 sons had an afair with one of the mums from their school ( i found out from them).
But within 6 months i met a really caring guy which i now have a 6 month old baby with, i should be happy but i'm not i cry all the time..... i have few friends here not like the ones i used to know in my home town tho, this is a small town and everyone is very clicky. my parents and sisters moved here a few yrs b4 me so it felt like a good choice. My sister is so wraped up in her self and her friends tho my parents seem to favour my sister and always have. I love my bf so much but can't help thinking he is going to leave me. i'm at home alone all day with baby and i feel like i am goin mad. i break down infront of my sons sometimes and hate myself for it.
to make matters worse i was burgled 2 weeks ago so my doctor gave me anti-depressants (citopram) which i slowly stopped as there was really bad pressure feeling in my head and i couldn't sleep which isn't good with a baby.
i wish i didn't feel this way. why do i feel so alone in the world?

thanks for reading xxxxxx

dear chrissie, welcome to the site!!! there are lots of us here who understand and will support you. it sounds like you have been going through a lot what with moving (a massive stress), being burgled which must be so awful,how dare people violate your home like that? and having a baby. taking care of a baby is such a demanding thing and you have every right to feel low and ask for help. have you tried going to any mother and baby groups and things like baby massage and music and stuff? there's often stuff going on at libraries and community centres. you could get to meet other mums in your area who can sympathise with how hard it is and it would be a way of getting away from home for a bit. be honest with your GP and health visitor about how low you are. there is a lot of support for post-natal depression if that's what you feel it is??????? please try to get yourself a counsellor to help support you and talk about your day to day struggles and past issues with your family favouring your sister and your ex cheating on you and being a complete git (in my non professional opinion!!) It sounds like you've got a good man this time tho,don't beat yourself up about not being happy although i find i feel this too,why is my head falling apart when i finally have a good job and lovely boyfriend? unfortunately depression never makes sense. and your boyf won't leave you if he really is a good bloke,hopefully you can both come out of this with your relationship stronger than ever and a deeper level of trust and understanding

use this website as much as you want to express your feelings,someone will always reply and support you,we're all a bit broken but very lovely!

Love Lisa xxxx (28,Brighton,England - good to have someone else from england here,me you and ken - xn728 - can start a british takeover and overpower everyone by depressing them even further with episodes of Eastenders and then throwing teabags at them!!!

[just joking everyone, i am completely sane and have no plans for world domination]

she says.....

hi chrissie,
i,ll second what lisa says .theres a lot here for you ,dont feel alone ,we all suffer, on here and there are lots of things to read ,we dont judge .and there are many differant opinions to be had ,feel free to type what you feel ,we all feel things in differant and interesting ways so look around and try and use what you find on here to your advantage
best wishes xn728

Hi Chrissie - I am glad you found this site. You will find some very supportive people here. You have been through so much lately. I really feel for you. I also think you should go back to your doctor and tell him about your experience with the anti depressant. Also tell him you are still really suffering and perhaps he can recommend something else. It sounds like it would do you a world of good just to get out with baby during the day so you don't feel so trapped at home. Lisa suggested mom and tot groups which are a good idea. If that's not possible can you put baby in a stroller and go out for a nice brisk walk every day while your boys are at school? I also think that some time "just for you" might be a good idea. Can your boyfriend watch the kids for a few hours just to give you a break from it all? I hope you will come back and update us on how you are doing.

yes we.ll said mich ,you have the power .
xn728

welcome here... do you possibly think it could be the baby blues???

Thanks everyone for making me feel welcome i wish i'd found this site long ago, all your comments mean so much and makes me feel there are people who understand what i am going thro and will not judge me no matter what. I will try my hardest to help others feel better on here to, as every comments means so much!
I think i do have the baby blues but it has brought other hidden deppression to the surface, theres lots i need to sort out in my head and this is a great place to start i think! thanks guys! xx

Hey chrissie - so sorry for my delayed welcome, but welcome!!!

I have to agree with Peach about perhaps having post partum depression... has the doctor spoken to you about that? Hard to believe they just stuck you on the anti-depressent. Hm.

Did they give you that PPD test before you left the hospital? I know that PPD can strike months after the baby's birth, but please do remember... no matter what, help is out there. Good for you for looking for it!

Also... my sister-in-law had PPD that lasted nearly two years after my nephew was born. She got help for it, and is much better now.

Good luck, Chrissie - and please keep posting!

((((Chrissie))))