I found these forums tonight after surfing Google and first finding the chat room. It's been a long night, with my fiance finally coming out to me and telling me that he thinks it would best if I sought counseling once more.
A little about my background: I am now 21 and have suffered from depression since I was about 11, and have dealt with social anxiety as long as I can remember. At the age of 14 (perhaps 13? forgive me, it's hard to remember the exact timeline) I was finally diagnosed with clinical depression. After that I went straight into counseling and many types of medications for years. Finally, when I was 18, I decided I had enough of this and could take care of myself on my own. I stopped taking my meds and I stopped seeing my therapist.
I don't think it's ever gone away though. I've tried to convince myself that I don't need any external help, but I think I've finally realized that I can't do everything on my own. I've decided to seek counseling once again this coming Monday. I am scared because I do not have health insurance, but I am hoping I can work something out.
In the mean time I am hoping to find friendship and support on these forums. If there is anything else you would like to know (I know this intro has been rather vague), just ask. I hope to get to know you all better soon.
-Papertongue