My name is Stephanie. I'm 34 years old, married, with two children that i love more than life. I have dealt with depression since I was a child. My father shot himself when I was 9. I tried to commit suicide when I was 12 and 15 by taking pills. My father committed suicide by shooting himself in the head when he was 38 years old. So, depression has always been in my life. My parents weren't good ones. They were alcoholics; they were days we had nothing to eat. I was molested by my uncle from about age 5 til 9. I finally told my parents what he did to me. They did nothing. At this point in my life, I have an amazing husband, good job, and good kids. But there is not a day that passes that I don't think about suicide. I'm seeking medical help and thought I'd try this support group. So, that's my sad and pathetic story.
I do maintain a job. I'm a computer programmer from Mississippi. I will not have my kids doing without like I did. The reason I sought help was that I cannot hurt my children so I still have some control. I'm hoping to get my prozac tomorrow and get back on track.
