Just Trying
Posted: Mon Nov 15, 2021 9:34 pm
Hi, my name is Claire.
I'm pretty new to these things - forums & expressing my deepest feelings, but I need to change something in my life. I used to ignore any mental issues in the past, because I would think they would just fade away as I reached new stages of my life. I thought I was being strong, though, now I feel like it was just laziness.
I'm at the point now where my feelings are completely overwhelming. I can't ignore them anymore, and it's scary. Every little thing is so hard to do. I've heard people say things like that before, but never fully understood it until recently. I can't think positively anymore and it absolutely guts me. Like is there really a part of my brain that's not functioning properly, and that's why I feel this way? Did I lead this on by ignoring things before?
I just don't want to feel alone anymore. For some reason I can't talk to people out loud about these feelings and that makes it even worse...I feel like I'm running out of options, which is a terrifying thought. I'm one of the last people to "put myself out there", and I'm not exactly sure how this will help yet, but I need to keep trying something.
**now that I've written this out, I feel like I'm coming in way too head on, but here we go**
I'm pretty new to these things - forums & expressing my deepest feelings, but I need to change something in my life. I used to ignore any mental issues in the past, because I would think they would just fade away as I reached new stages of my life. I thought I was being strong, though, now I feel like it was just laziness.
I'm at the point now where my feelings are completely overwhelming. I can't ignore them anymore, and it's scary. Every little thing is so hard to do. I've heard people say things like that before, but never fully understood it until recently. I can't think positively anymore and it absolutely guts me. Like is there really a part of my brain that's not functioning properly, and that's why I feel this way? Did I lead this on by ignoring things before?
I just don't want to feel alone anymore. For some reason I can't talk to people out loud about these feelings and that makes it even worse...I feel like I'm running out of options, which is a terrifying thought. I'm one of the last people to "put myself out there", and I'm not exactly sure how this will help yet, but I need to keep trying something.
**now that I've written this out, I feel like I'm coming in way too head on, but here we go**