Newcomer here
Posted: Tue Oct 06, 2020 8:00 am
Hi all. I came across this forum and chat because I was desperately seeking a relief or some support over depression. I've struggled with it off and on throughout my life. But, lately it's been rough. I know that it's because of certain people and circumstances in my life, but I just don't have anyone I can really talk to that understands or can really offer any kind of advice other than the conventional "it will be ok". Hoping to make some new friends here.
I'm 45 years old. In a relationship. I have a 27 yr old son from a previous. Currently not working, some of which is due to Covid, but there are other reasons holding me back at the moment. I understand most mental health diagnoses and I'm fairly educated about them. To be honest, I've been wrapped up in a relationship with someone for almost 2 years now that I've allowed to change my life drastically. Some of that is my fault because of my fear of abandonment and the willingness to put up with anything to be loved, but some is his too because of his personality type. I'm just in a place where I need someone to talk to. Someone that understands mental health and therapists aren't an option for me. Someone to talk to about life experiences and even just to have a conversation with would be so helpful, I think. I really don't know what else to do anymore and I'm not myself at all.
I don't know. Thoughts anyone? Waking up with a heavy heart every day and feeling unloved and unwanted is really starting to take a toll. All of my relationships are suffering in my life because I am suffering and I really don't know where to start to fix any of it. I've poured more out in this first post, than I have told anyone that I know. I guess I'm just really hurting at the moment and need to get it out somehow. I spend a lot of time listening to others and I'm able to offer good advice to others. But, I just can't fix me at the moment. My partner is no help. He doesn't really understand emotions at all. My fault again for getting involved with the wrong type.
Anyone out there to talk to?
I'm 45 years old. In a relationship. I have a 27 yr old son from a previous. Currently not working, some of which is due to Covid, but there are other reasons holding me back at the moment. I understand most mental health diagnoses and I'm fairly educated about them. To be honest, I've been wrapped up in a relationship with someone for almost 2 years now that I've allowed to change my life drastically. Some of that is my fault because of my fear of abandonment and the willingness to put up with anything to be loved, but some is his too because of his personality type. I'm just in a place where I need someone to talk to. Someone that understands mental health and therapists aren't an option for me. Someone to talk to about life experiences and even just to have a conversation with would be so helpful, I think. I really don't know what else to do anymore and I'm not myself at all.
I don't know. Thoughts anyone? Waking up with a heavy heart every day and feeling unloved and unwanted is really starting to take a toll. All of my relationships are suffering in my life because I am suffering and I really don't know where to start to fix any of it. I've poured more out in this first post, than I have told anyone that I know. I guess I'm just really hurting at the moment and need to get it out somehow. I spend a lot of time listening to others and I'm able to offer good advice to others. But, I just can't fix me at the moment. My partner is no help. He doesn't really understand emotions at all. My fault again for getting involved with the wrong type.
Anyone out there to talk to?