Hello Val! It's great to see you are reaching out. It shows that you are prepared to take back your life and improve for the better. This is the first, and most important step towards a better future.
Life is about unpredictability. We cannot predict when things will happen. We could turn the corner and run into one of the greatest moments of our life, or stumble through a rough path of challenge. Life is volatile, and we never know what could happen next.
What yo uare experiencing is a much larger issue confined not only towards people undergoing hardships. This feeling of emptiness is seen throughout the world in abundance. Many see celebrities and famous figures and connect their success to wealth, prestige, fame, or any other physical and tangible attribute.
So many go through their life chasing these dreams in hope they will experience true joy. But what few realize is that these unrealistic and ludacris societal expectations move at a faster rate than what we can run. And so, we end up exerting all of our precious time here on earth in a futile attempt to obtain something that A) rarely can be obtained and B) if obtained, will not satisfy our need for happiness.
The great thing about happiness is that, unlike the deceiving joy these physical thing bring about, true happiness doesn't play tricks. It doesn't mess around with us or try and lure u into a trap that leaves us with our eyes glued to something we know we can't have. And the definition of happiness isn't written in stone. It is simply what satisfies you. Maybe it is having a family, getting your dream job, or any thing else. The bottom line is, you must discover what your happiness is.
Now back to you, Val. Obviously, if you are feeling empty, you haven't found happiness. When we indulge in that faux joy I talked about earlier, we are left feeling like a skeleton without flesh, a vein without blood, or a mind without thoughts. We feel depressed and a sense of dissatisfaction that seems to eat away at us from the inside out. Sure, we do exist, but we aren't truly alive because we aren't filled with happiness, which is the lifeblood of humans.
I'd love to tell you that there is that one thing that yo ucan do that will cure your depression and make you feel unbelievably joyful, but realistically, I cannot. I do not know you or what you need to make yourself happy. But I can tell you ways to do this.
1) Are you a more emotional or romantic person? If so, consider exploring hobbies like writing, singing (if you have a talent for that), or playing an instrument, like the violin. Also, if you are the romantic type in need for love and affection, find a girl that truly cares about you, or even a new best friend that cares for you above all others. Go on dating sites or sites where you can meet friends.
2) Are you a creative person? Once again, writing, but also others things like building a website, painting, or even just listening to music can help.
3) Are you a physical person? Try excersize like cycling, running, going for walk, walking a dog if you have one (you could get one if you feel you need someone to keep you company), weight lifting, or even meditating can help you find your purpose but also find true joy.
The end goal is finding true happiness, and knowing what things to keep your eye on and what things you should ignore. It's a journey, and it doesn't always come easily to everyone. Give yourself some time, and most importantly, take care of yourself. Get rest, eat, drink plenty of water, and try not to stress too much. You deserve to give yourself a break. You've been through a lot. Remember that those who suffer always come out stronger than the rest. You are experiencing a different side of the life spectrum, and this will make you wiser and a more caring person. You'll know that before you can find success and glory at the top, you need to first descend to the bottom and find your way up.
Anyway I hope this all makes sense (I have a tendency to ramble, in case you couldn't tell
). I wish you all the best, and I'll be praying for you.
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