Need a friend to talk to
Posted: Sat Jan 21, 2017 1:30 pm
Help everyone. Im 26 from johannesburg South Africa and I suffer from social anxiety and it has led me to live a very depressed life. Of course none of this is visible to my family, everyone thinks I love isolating myself and I've heard some " u think you better than everyone else" comments more than I'd like to disclose. My cousin once said that i have the biggest heart. I dont necessarily like to be around a lot of people but I'm human and it bothers me that I cant make friends even though im a very caring person. I sometimes make friends in my head and imagine all the things we could do together. This drives me more and more into my depression. I would like something real, I just don't know how to go about it. My trust in people is very fragile and even though I think I'm forgiving, people around me have told me to learn to let things go. Meeting new people is the hardest thing unless I drink something for the nerves, that's how I met my exes and all of them were convinced I had a drinking problem. But I don't, I hate most alcoholic drinks but my anxiety is greater than any of my feelings. I used to break down in tears begging God to make me normal just like everyone else... its good to know that and I'm not alone