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[adrianedcd]

Hello! This is way new to me, but I'm gonna give this a shot. I am 27 and have recently moved with my husband who got a job after recieving his Phd. We have been married for nearly 5 years. While he was getting his graduate degree, I went back to school also adding a Bachelor's degree to my Associates. We moved back to the small town where I originally went to school, and though one would think that I would be thrilled to be back in a town that I once loved so much, I am miserable. My husband settled for a job that was supposed to be a stepping stone to teaching, and is not happy with were he is and I hear complaints about his job every night when he comes home. I have been unemployed since graduating, no one is hiring in my feild. I have fought so hard for a carreer while supporting my husband's ambitions and it has led me to nothing. I feel like such a failure. I have been a work-a-holic since I have been 16 and rattling around our new house is killing me. I have been so busy supporting my husband going to school that I have not made any friends, and what few I have do not live nearby. My husband wants his time when he gets home and he is entiltled to it, but I am so sick and tired of my only companion being our cat. Following my husband for his new job and not having one of my own has been hard. I feel lonley, lost, failed in my personal ambitions, that I take a back seat constantly and that I have lost all sense of my own identity. I'm just so tired of being sad. I try to look at the bright side and be thankful for what I have, but why does everyone else around me get to have their dreams and not me?

[Emotional_77]

, but why does everyone else around me get to have their dreams and not me?

heh, i ask myself that question a lot of the time as well. The thing about your schooling and finding a job is not your fault though cause there is not any available job right now that is in your field. You are very lucky to be married and to have someone to love you.. So you may not have many friends but you do have someone who loves you.

Welcome to the site.