New to forum and depression

[keepnfaith]

Hi all, I just wanted to take a minute to introduce myself. I'm 30 years old and a single mom to a great little boy. I live in a small town and up until now have always been a very happy go lucky kind of person. For the past few months I have been dealing with this hopeless feeling that leaves me irritated and just plain sad. I kept thinking that it was just things going on around me that was making me feel this way, but I have not been able to kick the feeling. I turned 30 this year, and instead of being excited and wanting to celebrate I dreaded it. I recently broke up with a man that I had only dated for about 7 months, but was very much in love with. So I thought maybe that was why I was so down. Then I realized that it was everything. My job, my car, my home (or lack of), my body, my town, my friends. Even the things I loved the most I could care less about now. I just want to sell everything I own and move to another place, change my identity and start a new life. I have come to the conclusion that this is not natural or even normal for me and I am definitely dealing with depression, which I know nothing about. I really need help. I hope I can find it here and in turn help someone else. Thanks for reading.

[Emotional_77]

First off welcome to the forums.. I wasnt surprised when you said you werent excited to turn 30 cause I dont think anyone would be with depression or not. Anyway, have you ever thought about talking to your doctor about this? He may have more ways of helping you through this time. Everything you mentioned you felt does sound like depression so I would advise speaking to your doctor about this. In the mean time though there is great support in the forums and the chat as well, you came to a good place. Welcome

[andrea]

hi!
we're here for you. : ) i'm no doctor, but it's true that the first step to getting better is to accept that you need help, and you've done that.