Hi, I'm the new kid.
I've never battled deep depression until recently. Sure I've been sad or had bouts of low self esteem but never this debilitating. It's been several months now, it's almost completely consumed my life and I don't really know what to do. I've become emotionally detached from everyone. I'm finding it very difficult to talk to people that don't understand these feelings, and that's what led me here.
Thank you!
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hey wally.
i think i can understand where you're coming from, my depression was never really bad and debilitating until one year when it just turned so so bad. but then i started to get professional help and things have been slowly getting better over time. sounds like you have tried to talk to people about how youve been feeling then? what happened?
for sure people here will understand, which is always reassuring.
see you around
jj
i think i can understand where you're coming from, my depression was never really bad and debilitating until one year when it just turned so so bad. but then i started to get professional help and things have been slowly getting better over time. sounds like you have tried to talk to people about how youve been feeling then? what happened?
for sure people here will understand, which is always reassuring.
see you around
jj
Hi Wally,
It's a good thing you've arrived here. Welcome aboard! This is a place where people do listen. I have found some measure of peace for all responses of empathy/sympathy/advice received. Continue to speak of what it is that's grieving you. This is always helpful, and because there are others who can then relate to any specifics; Readers will respond. It sounds as though you've poured your heart out already. I definately feel for you and have been there, am there. You are not alone here...
Continue talking to us. If any responses come to a slow, you can post under a different topic title. I'm new myself--Didn't know I could do that! My very best of wishes to you. Hang in there!!
It's a good thing you've arrived here. Welcome aboard! This is a place where people do listen. I have found some measure of peace for all responses of empathy/sympathy/advice received. Continue to speak of what it is that's grieving you. This is always helpful, and because there are others who can then relate to any specifics; Readers will respond. It sounds as though you've poured your heart out already. I definately feel for you and have been there, am there. You are not alone here...
Continue talking to us. If any responses come to a slow, you can post under a different topic title. I'm new myself--Didn't know I could do that! My very best of wishes to you. Hang in there!!
Thank you so much jj and 4EverMe, your kind words mean a lot! I went to therapy back in December and have been on anti depressants since January. It hasn't helped much, I think it's because I'm having a very difficult time opening up or accepting what's going on. I'm usually a strong person and I feel like I should have conquered this by now but I haven't, not even close. Posting on here seems like a good outlet for me where people will understand, I'm glad I stumbled upon it. Seriously, thank you!
@4EverMe- Yeah I was actually just at the Seattle Center earlier today. I kinda forced myself to get out of the house but yes the weather was lovely and they were doing a zombie walk so there was a lot of interesting costumes to look at. I haven't been to Bremerton in forever but I went to Port Orchard not too long ago, that's pretty close huh?It is a small world!
@4EverMe- Yeah I was actually just at the Seattle Center earlier today. I kinda forced myself to get out of the house but yes the weather was lovely and they were doing a zombie walk so there was a lot of interesting costumes to look at. I haven't been to Bremerton in forever but I went to Port Orchard not too long ago, that's pretty close huh?It is a small world!
Hey Wally!
I'm glad you stumbled upon this site too. Heck, I'm also grateful I wound up here!! I know there are LOTS of posters here and you're the first person I've found in close vicinity. And I haven't been in Seattle in forever! The last time was when I came to take a GreyHound to see my Mom in Florence, OR. (on the coast, next to Newport) So beautiful there too...I really miss the ocean. We're surrounded by pretty oceanic water here, in the Puget Sound. But I miss the kinda ocean with waves crashing in! You know?
I'm so happy that you're already finding solace here. Are you seeing a doctor about the depression? On any meds? You described yourself as the new 'kid' here. Don't know if that was just a term you used. So, I don't know if at your age you've even considered therapy of any kind. Helps--if you feel you need it at some point.
Keep us posted. Haha! No pun intended. (but funny) Talk to you later! 4EverMe
I'm glad you stumbled upon this site too. Heck, I'm also grateful I wound up here!! I know there are LOTS of posters here and you're the first person I've found in close vicinity. And I haven't been in Seattle in forever! The last time was when I came to take a GreyHound to see my Mom in Florence, OR. (on the coast, next to Newport) So beautiful there too...I really miss the ocean. We're surrounded by pretty oceanic water here, in the Puget Sound. But I miss the kinda ocean with waves crashing in! You know?
I'm so happy that you're already finding solace here. Are you seeing a doctor about the depression? On any meds? You described yourself as the new 'kid' here. Don't know if that was just a term you used. So, I don't know if at your age you've even considered therapy of any kind. Helps--if you feel you need it at some point.
Keep us posted. Haha! No pun intended. (but funny) Talk to you later! 4EverMe
4EverMe,
No need to apologize, you may be tired but you're not an idiot
Yes when I referred to myself as the 'new kid' it was just a term. I may wish I was still a kid but I'm actually 35. I went to therapy and a doc but couldn't open up all the way, I guess I'm scared or ashamed or whatever, I kept the most disturbing details to myself anyway. I see all the supportive people on here and have a feeling I'm not too far from spilling my guts, it might be good for me.
You mentioned the ocean earlier and I'm embarrassed to say that I haven't been there in about 10 years. That's a disgrace haha, there's people in Kansas that have to travel hundreds of miles to see an ocean and it's a pretty short drive for me!
No need to apologize, you may be tired but you're not an idiot
Yes when I referred to myself as the 'new kid' it was just a term. I may wish I was still a kid but I'm actually 35. I went to therapy and a doc but couldn't open up all the way, I guess I'm scared or ashamed or whatever, I kept the most disturbing details to myself anyway. I see all the supportive people on here and have a feeling I'm not too far from spilling my guts, it might be good for me.
You mentioned the ocean earlier and I'm embarrassed to say that I haven't been there in about 10 years. That's a disgrace haha, there's people in Kansas that have to travel hundreds of miles to see an ocean and it's a pretty short drive for me!
Hey Wally,
Sorry it took a bit to get back to ya! Thankyou for informing me that I'm no idiot. I need that affirmation sometimes! Haha.
So, yeah...about the 'rolling waves type of ocean?' I haven't been there in a few years. Went to Ocean Shores w/a girlfriend of mine. We arrived in the evening (rather than noon)! Atleast we saw the sunset. Next day, we were gonna enjoy the waves. She parked her truck on the shore so we could hear the radio. Her vehicle got stuck. All remaining time was spent dealing w/that, and then we left. It was a REAL blow to me cuz prior to that I hadn't been to the seashore in YEARS! That's the whole reason my friend took me to Ocean Shores to begin with! Haven't been since. (No car). Ugh...
Well, its good to know your age. I know how to better respond. Me, I'm just a few years older. People think I'm between 25-35 and I turned 41 last month! And like I told a friend of mine, people say I'm beautiful. They have no clue that too often I feel like an old lady.Too isolated--Ugh!
Sorry it took a bit to get back to ya! Thankyou for informing me that I'm no idiot. I need that affirmation sometimes! Haha.
So, yeah...about the 'rolling waves type of ocean?' I haven't been there in a few years. Went to Ocean Shores w/a girlfriend of mine. We arrived in the evening (rather than noon)! Atleast we saw the sunset. Next day, we were gonna enjoy the waves. She parked her truck on the shore so we could hear the radio. Her vehicle got stuck. All remaining time was spent dealing w/that, and then we left. It was a REAL blow to me cuz prior to that I hadn't been to the seashore in YEARS! That's the whole reason my friend took me to Ocean Shores to begin with! Haven't been since. (No car). Ugh...
Well, its good to know your age. I know how to better respond. Me, I'm just a few years older. People think I'm between 25-35 and I turned 41 last month! And like I told a friend of mine, people say I'm beautiful. They have no clue that too often I feel like an old lady.Too isolated--Ugh!
4EverMe,
Sorry your ocean trip did'nt go well. Several years ago I went ocean shores with a friend and he got his vehicle stuck as the tide was coming in haha! Eventually we were watching the beautiful rolling waves crash into the side of his truck. We all laugh about it now but he was in tears that day! His truck was ruined and had to be towed back to Renton. Come to think of it, that was the last time I was there.
I get told I look young for my age too. Usually I'm very active and don't feel 35, but sometimes when I'm around my baby sis (who's actually 21) she makes me feel old haha!
Sorry your ocean trip did'nt go well. Several years ago I went ocean shores with a friend and he got his vehicle stuck as the tide was coming in haha! Eventually we were watching the beautiful rolling waves crash into the side of his truck. We all laugh about it now but he was in tears that day! His truck was ruined and had to be towed back to Renton. Come to think of it, that was the last time I was there.
I get told I look young for my age too. Usually I'm very active and don't feel 35, but sometimes when I'm around my baby sis (who's actually 21) she makes me feel old haha!
Hi Wally.
How are things going with you?
I couldn' help but laugh about your experience at ocean shores. You know. Murph's Law: If anything can go wrong, it will.
Funny the way you described the incident with the beautiful, rolling ocean waves battering the said of your friends truck!! But when I read it was ruined, that sucks. Atleast you both can laugh about it now. Motto of story for all who read: Let us never park wheels on ocean shores. (pun intended) haha!
Dang. I'm just dragging. I have a simple appt today at my apt office today and I have NO energy to get ready! Feels like I need my mommy here telling me to get up and get my ass in the frickin shower. LOL. What's wrong with me?!
So, I have a 21 yr old son who's all ripped and full of energy. Wish I were that age again! But then it might feel weird being a 21 yr old w/a 21 yr old. Haha! Well, I'll talk at you later. Hope you're feeling better! 4EverMe
How are things going with you?
I couldn' help but laugh about your experience at ocean shores. You know. Murph's Law: If anything can go wrong, it will.
Funny the way you described the incident with the beautiful, rolling ocean waves battering the said of your friends truck!! But when I read it was ruined, that sucks. Atleast you both can laugh about it now. Motto of story for all who read: Let us never park wheels on ocean shores. (pun intended) haha!
Dang. I'm just dragging. I have a simple appt today at my apt office today and I have NO energy to get ready! Feels like I need my mommy here telling me to get up and get my ass in the frickin shower. LOL. What's wrong with me?!
So, I have a 21 yr old son who's all ripped and full of energy. Wish I were that age again! But then it might feel weird being a 21 yr old w/a 21 yr old. Haha! Well, I'll talk at you later. Hope you're feeling better! 4EverMe
Get up and get in the shower 4EverMe! Haha.
There's nothing wrong with you, it's not your fault you have these struggles. A year ago I had no idea how mentally and physically exhausting depression could be. Sometimes it's hard to get out of bed or scary to be around people. Honestly, I've only been on this site a few days but reading about others (including yourself) has been inspiring. I've been in a funk for 10 months and I'm BARELY hanging on, I have some terrifying things I've been holding in, but when I see that others have been courageously battling so much for several years or even decades I start to think "yeah maybe I can keep fighting as well." So thank you and good luck with your appointment!
There's nothing wrong with you, it's not your fault you have these struggles. A year ago I had no idea how mentally and physically exhausting depression could be. Sometimes it's hard to get out of bed or scary to be around people. Honestly, I've only been on this site a few days but reading about others (including yourself) has been inspiring. I've been in a funk for 10 months and I'm BARELY hanging on, I have some terrifying things I've been holding in, but when I see that others have been courageously battling so much for several years or even decades I start to think "yeah maybe I can keep fighting as well." So thank you and good luck with your appointment!
Hi Wally,
Would rather go shell hunting than drag my butt to this appt. Atleast the ocean is a comfort, a healing place to be. And in the Northwest--not so crowded!
I'm glad you're deciding to stick it out. That's awesome!! Proud of you. I know it's hard to rise above the abyss. Wouldn't it be nice if we could all meet at a Depression Convention? Haha Couldn' help it...I guess we're all already doing that here. Just can't see eachother eachother's faces like in regular one-on-one conversations.
So, how did you find this site??
Would rather go shell hunting than drag my butt to this appt. Atleast the ocean is a comfort, a healing place to be. And in the Northwest--not so crowded!
I'm glad you're deciding to stick it out. That's awesome!! Proud of you.
I know it's hard to rise above the abyss. Wouldn't it be nice if we could all meet at a Depression Convention? Haha Couldn' help it...I guess we're all already doing that here. Just can't see eachother eachother's faces like in regular one-on-one conversations.
So, how did you find this site??
Good choice 4EverMe, shell hunting sounds way better than that stupid appointment!
Haha, maybe those drug companies will fork out the money to sponsor that depression convention, they seem like they're selling plenty of anti depressants.
How did I find this site? Well, I guess I'm gonna have to open up a little more. I was doing various searches about suicide. I've been having bad suicidal ideation and what scares me is the more serious and detailed it gets the more I'm ashamed to talk about it. So I came across someone asking about a discrete way to talk about suicide that would be a supportive environment, someone answered him with a link to this site, I clicked on it and here I am.
Haha, maybe those drug companies will fork out the money to sponsor that depression convention, they seem like they're selling plenty of anti depressants.
How did I find this site? Well, I guess I'm gonna have to open up a little more. I was doing various searches about suicide. I've been having bad suicidal ideation and what scares me is the more serious and detailed it gets the more I'm ashamed to talk about it. So I came across someone asking about a discrete way to talk about suicide that would be a supportive environment, someone answered him with a link to this site, I clicked on it and here I am.
Hey Wally!
The first part of last post--pretty funny.Got a laugh in my day. Thanks! We all know that laughter is the best medicine.
Yeah, those drug companies make their progressively steady flows of cash! Don't think any one of them have ever fantisized about robbing a bank. Haha Heck. They Are the bank! But greed begets greed. Boy, I sound kinda funny talkin about that though, all the stuff I take. Ugh.
So, I was just curious how you arrived here. As for me, I was looking online for the quickest and easiest way to do 'the deed.' A sight popped up that I figured would help push me off the cliff. To make a long story short, I backed up a a few feet from the edge. Still worried, though I have a little more time for decsion making. But I'm grateful for the support here! Tried to PM you a couple evenings ago. Messed up and sent it to myself. Haha! Maybe I'll try again later. Take it easy. Oh! Port Orcard IS close, about ten miles from Bremerton. If you came from Seattle, you went through Bremerton.
The first part of last post--pretty funny.Got a laugh in my day. Thanks! We all know that laughter is the best medicine.
Yeah, those drug companies make their progressively steady flows of cash! Don't think any one of them have ever fantisized about robbing a bank. Haha Heck. They Are the bank! But greed begets greed. Boy, I sound kinda funny talkin about that though, all the stuff I take. Ugh.
So, I was just curious how you arrived here. As for me, I was looking online for the quickest and easiest way to do 'the deed.' A sight popped up that I figured would help push me off the cliff. To make a long story short, I backed up a a few feet from the edge. Still worried, though I have a little more time for decsion making. But I'm grateful for the support here! Tried to PM you a couple evenings ago. Messed up and sent it to myself. Haha! Maybe I'll try again later. Take it easy. Oh! Port Orcard IS close, about ten miles from Bremerton. If you came from Seattle, you went through Bremerton.
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