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Hi. The name's Brittany. I have recently started college and have a story to tell. I'm going to save the sepcifics, but give you the story of someone who has been dealing with depression a long time.

Me.

I've been bullied since Kindergarten. I was the weird kid. I was always the weird kid. But no one wanted to get to know me, and I was one of the friendliest people you will ever meet.

Middle was the worst. My dad was a verbually abusive alcoholic. People hated me, and I was the new kid. During high school, I developed depression and self hate. A really deep deep self hate.

I've been dealing with this for a long time. It's been hard, with being someone with self hate and a Christian at the same time. I also have an anxiety disorder and maybe social phobia as well, even though I love meeting people.

So I dunno if this is too much info here or not :/ But I love to get to know and be friends with people. I am glad I found this site. I'm not dealing so well now, and I wanted to commit suicide last night. The first time in a year. I'm really friendly and its great to meet ya'll

Sorry again if this is too much info here :/

Hi Brittlane93,

Very nice to meet you! My name is Eric and you are in very good company here. We all have or are suffering pain and came here for support. Although I myself don't have all the same problems that you have, I can relate to some. For instance, I was "weird" as a kid (maybe I still am! ), developed severe/suicidal depression in high school, self-hatred. I am Christian, too! Thank God you didn't try to kill yourself last night! I'm finding myself starting to deflect suicidal thoughts again, but am currently not in danger.

Anyway, I'm glad you came here, and looking forward to talking with you!

Take care!

Sincerely,
Eric

Its really nice to meet you Eric.

Welcome to the forums! =]