Kindness of strangers

[stormerhas]

Hi to all here. I've been reading everyone's introduction and now I don't feel so alone anymore. I kind of wish BigBuck was still posting I have a similar story to share.

My name is Heather. I am 36 years old and currently in a relationship with a man who has Aspergers syndrome. The last five years have been very difficult and I feel myself wearing out. It's only been in the past two years that I've noticed a real change in my behavior and mood. I no longer seek out social interactions, I rarely do the things I use to enjoy. I feel like my body hurts all the time. I was officially diagnosed with depression 18 months ago. I was prescribed Zoloft, but the side effects have been worse than my depression. I stopped taking it, but now I feel like I want to self medicate with other things.... alcohol, pot, food.
I seek help and advice .... the kindness of strangers.... what am I suppose to do? Is there any hope at all? Am I always going to feel this way?

I know I'm still young and vibrant and have a lot to offer this world, but I feel old and worn out like my body officially hates me, and I fear that it is BECAUSE of this relationship that I feel this way? I don't know?

[Warmsoul/Jeanie13]

stormerhas

Depression is a strange bed fellow. Talk with the doctor, tell him how the meds are doing, there are many meds out there, it is kind of a trial and error process.

Keep sharing and really hope you give the depression chat room a try.

Warmie

[Emotional_77]

Hi and welcome to the forums

Jeanie is right, just keep trying other medications or other ways that can help with your depression. You will eventually find what works for you. Of course you will have temptations to handle it the wrong way like you said with pot food etc. but maybe that could be handled with some sort of counseling or the people here and in the chat area can help with that also? There are many ways to treat depression, you just got to find the ones that work for you.

Hope to see you posting more.