You know, I just found this site, I read a few topics, I just about cried. I'm about to cry as I'm typing now. I hate my depression, and anxietys. Although now for the past 3 days all I can think about is killing myself, I have a case with Human Rights Tribunal against my employer for harassment/discrimination, they responded saying I'm lying that I was never harassed, or discriminated, but rather Im doing it to get money from the company. I go to work everyday, I want to cry, I cry most days at work. I look for other employment I get no interviews, I'm trying to contact my family again, I have been estranged for three years now. I'm trying to deal with child abuse I went through as a kid. I'm trying to keep myself alive to the basic point, but everything is so hard.
*Crys* I just want to end it right now. I have no friends, no family, ppl call me names, say I'm Psycho, ask me if I'm going to kill them, laugh at me. I don't know what to do anymore. I just really want to die, suicide, I have been at total peace with for a year now, I really beleive it's how I will die.
I hate myself more everyday as I take Dexedrine for ADHD (21 years now taking it, and I'm only 24), I hate the Anti-Anxiety, and the Anti-Psychotics, it's unbareable.
. You now have friends here. Talk to me whenever you need to.. *hugs you*
