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[Wonder]

I've been coming to this site for about a month now and feel like it's time to post here. Even though I don't look it, I'm sixty-five years old and have been depressed off and on most of my life. It's funny, because I have fibromyalgia as well, and between my body and my mind, I feel like I'm 100 years old, and people think I'm in my forties. It helps with hiding how I feel though, because people seem to think you are the way you look. Reading the posts I can see that even though there are different people and ages, everyone seems to experience the same things with the depression.

I really didn't expect to still be dealing with this in retirement and thought it would keep getting better as I got older, but it started getting worse six months ago and I also started waking up with panic attacks, having a hard time getting up, and not wanting to go out in public or see friends. It's way worse in the mornings. I'm pretty much a mess til mid-afternoon. I'm back on meds and am managing to hide and cope though my days. My husband is supportive even though he doesn't really understand (that's to be expected). I have alot of bad childhood experiences and have had about ten years of therapy (at different times), but even though I have knowledge the depression doesn't change much - I think it's chemical and genetic.

Well, that's about it. I find coming to this site really helps and am very grateful I found it.

[DaisyFantaisie]

Hi Wonder. I'm new here too. We can hold hands and jump in together

[xn728]

hey wonder, and daisyf,,,,im glad you both found your way here ,,and found each other ,,we are a very careing family here ,,and your both very welcome ,,many suffer here but we always manage to support each other ,,we have laughs at times to ,,and posts can be pretty upbeat ,,this is a very warm place to be ,,im sure you will both find what your looking for ,,you have many freinds now ,,we will not judge you ,,and we give,,,
kind words and support if you should need them ,,this is a long dark road we travel ,,and if you should stumble reach out and we will catch your fall,,,,welcome home and hugs (((((to the both of you ))))),,,,,love xn728 ken xxx

[Mich]

Welcome Wonder and DaisyF - this is a truly wonderful site where people hold each other up through the darkness. I hope you find much comfort here.

[crystalgaze]

Hi Wonder, & welcome!

[Wonder]

Thank you for the responses - they meant alot to me. I am glad I have found a caring place to reach out in . . . where there is warmth and understanding.