New member... was highly depressed, now slightly...

[buzzking00]

Hey guys...
I'm new here.
I face depression from the world overwhelming me with problems. It's just too much...
I hope there are people with similar problems to talk about here.

I just wanted to share this video about a buddy that faced depression. He overcame it and it all started with this video he made about his depression. He said it helped and it brightened up my day to watch it.

I hope it does the same for you guys...
I hope this forum offers the help I need...
I can't take this crap anymore. Life...

[hollyann]

Hi Buzzking. Welcome to the forum.

I'm glad your buddy overcame depression but unfortunately we don't allow links to be posted here. If someone asks for the link though you could maybe share it with them through pm through the site or you could enter what a person would search so that they could find it.

I'm sorry you are struggling so much right now and you feel overwhelmed by it all. A lot of caring people here. Are you getting any kind of help? Meds? Therapy?

Look forward to hearing more from you.

hollyann

[buzzking00]

No meds or therapy. No help at all right now. I just found out about this forum so hopefully this helps...
I'll be roaming the site tonight...
I'm ready to make some changes in my life.

If anyone wants to see the video just PM me.

[4EverMe]

Hi Buzzking,
I'm sorry you're feeling so overwhelmed. What's going on in your life? Is it a number of things, or something in particular? At any rate, I know all TOO well what you mean, 'overwhelmed.' I spoke with my brother today, (who's also dealing w/ alot) and discovered that our situations parallel eacchother's in a lot of ways. It truly does help that we can relate. No pun intended. But...don't ever imagine that you're alone!! If you feel an urge to get it off your chest, someone here...in a similar predicament, may be of more help.

Please keep us posted! Pun intended. Let us know how you're doing.

[Frame]

I was reading a post about sarcastic rejoinders yesterday and one went like this:

Statement: "Everything we need as humans we have here inside us."

And the response: "Really? I never noticed that umbrella inside me."

So, I'm not so sure that we have everything we need inside us; in fact, I believe we only get what we need by building communities (and ouch, try to swallow a brick sometime. No please don't. [I have to be careful what i say around here.])

But really, this post is about the umbrella inside me right now. When depression has the upper hand, nothing seems worth living for, at least I can sleep. When anxiety has the upper hand it feels like so much pressure inside me it won't let up. I don't want to walk, I don't want to sit, I don't want to lie down, I don't want to work, I don't want to play; I want somebody to stop trying to open an umbrella inside me.

I feel right now like there's a huge silent buzzing noise inside me, like one of those electromechanical door locks; it's stuck ON and attached to this umbrella trying to open. And the worst part is, I'm like, 'This must mean something; there must be some kind of moral to an electric umbrella trying to open in your chest.' But we all know I'm wasting my time. It doesn't mean anything....accept maybe I need some sleep.