just need support.

[babygirlcarp0611]

I was diagnosed with depression a few years ago when I was in the Navy. Since then I have had a baby. I moved back to Texas in May 2011 when I was 33 weeks pregnant with my daughter from Ohio. My husband is on probation so he wasnt able to stay in Texas with me. He was here when our daughter was born but had to leave when she was 10 days old. I was living with family and they pushed me to get a job so the day my husband had to go back to Ohio I went back to work. 10 days after having a C-section. that was the 30th of June. The next time I saw my husband it was a few days before christmas. I had been working full time and taking care of our daughter. Then he had to leave again Jan 4th. He finally moved down on the 21st of Jan 2012. Since he has been down here I feel like things have gotten better, I had my family back. Well we moved into a place of our own and a little over a week ago my husband got laid off. Now Im back to all of the emotions and these feelings that I thought went away! How are we all going to make it on just my paychecks? So I decided to go back to school and use my GI Bill. They now pay you for your living expenses(?) so I now have to worry about working full time, going to school full time, and making time for my family without losing my mind! I know that was a lot but it feels better now that I was able to say it. If any one has any words of wisdom please fill me in. If anyone on here prays please say a prayer for my family and I because we sure could use it right about now! Thank you for reading!

[babygirlcarp0611]

Any one know how I can go one with my life this way? My husband is doing everything he can to get a job! But when I come home Im mad bc some of the basic stuff around the house isnt done. Sometimes the dishes are not done and I have to do them after working all day and today my daughters close were left out so my husband could hang them up while I was at work, well I came home and the clothes were on the floor just kinda thrown around and not put up when I asked him why it wasnt done he got mad and said that he cant seem to do anything right and I told him it wasnt like that that he did do alot today but that the clothes were not put away like I asked and the place where they were was in the middle of the walk way so I know he stepped over them all day. I just feel like Im sinking back into the cranky mood that I was in when I was in the Navy and I dont want to be that person anymore because of my daughter. But its so hard to go on when I feel like the bad guy all the time!